It's ttotm, so I don't know if my current 197 lbs is actually accurate, but that's where I am *cries* I've been riding my bike, but also for the last two days I've been eating pie. And not just any pie, but brilliant, horribly, fattening pie. I came up with the awesome idea to make a pie in three layers, graham crust, with brownie baked in, then a layer of ice cream, then a layer of chocolate mousse. The mousse was probably the least caloried of them, because it was made with sugar-free pudding. Anyway, over the last two days I have had two 1/8th slices of that along with a few spoonfuls of the leftover mousse. The rest of my eating has been ok. Pretty much all good food. Or at least minimal food.
Last night for dinner I had a slice of pizza, just one, well two, that were cut in half so I could have two flavors. For breakfast I had 2 1/2 eggs (I didn't eat the yoke of the third) and for lunch I had a 7-layer burrito ez on the rice, with half the tortilla thrown away. That's been a pretty common theme for the last few days.
I was snacking on some chips day before yesterday though. Man, I really gotta get out of these habits. I looks so bad to see all this in writing. lol
That's all I have for right now. Hope all is well with you guys! :)
Current weight:197lbs
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Almost Bandiversary.
So the three months is up. I went in for more barium yesterday. Ick!! All is well in lap-band land. He put 3cc's back in. Don't think that's gonna do much, but it makes me feel better to know the net is back, even if it's a small one.
I've gained some weight. I don't know how much yet. Guess I should stop putting it off and weigh myself tomorrow morning. I'll let you know how that goes... maybe.
By the way, if anybody wants to add me on Facebook, lemme know via email. I'd put up a link, but I'm too lazy to do that right now. I have to revamp my pages anyway sooner or later, so I'll put it up then I guess.
Also, if you have an iPhone, iTouch, or iPad and use either We Rule or Words with friends, I need more neighbors/friends, so please... let me know!! My username on those is Gwydas. I wish there was a way to social network the Wii Fit, but I don't think there is at this point. If any of you knows anybody who works for Nintendo, tell them to get on the ball with the social networking stuff!
One more thing, the title of this post even... heh... my bandiversary is coming up. I think my total, if you include the weight I've gained back, was about 70 pounds. Better overall than what it would have been without the band *cough*gained 20 pounds*cough* but still disappointing. I was hoping for a hundred or so. Still, I'm skinnier now than I've been in over 10 years. So hooray!
Current weight: 280 lbs. ?
I've gained some weight. I don't know how much yet. Guess I should stop putting it off and weigh myself tomorrow morning. I'll let you know how that goes... maybe.
By the way, if anybody wants to add me on Facebook, lemme know via email. I'd put up a link, but I'm too lazy to do that right now. I have to revamp my pages anyway sooner or later, so I'll put it up then I guess.
Also, if you have an iPhone, iTouch, or iPad and use either We Rule or Words with friends, I need more neighbors/friends, so please... let me know!! My username on those is Gwydas. I wish there was a way to social network the Wii Fit, but I don't think there is at this point. If any of you knows anybody who works for Nintendo, tell them to get on the ball with the social networking stuff!
One more thing, the title of this post even... heh... my bandiversary is coming up. I think my total, if you include the weight I've gained back, was about 70 pounds. Better overall than what it would have been without the band *cough*gained 20 pounds*cough* but still disappointing. I was hoping for a hundred or so. Still, I'm skinnier now than I've been in over 10 years. So hooray!
Current weight: 280 lbs. ?
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Fill, again.
Well, I was sick of eating so much so I went in for another fill yesterday. Doc says I'm at 5 something. Could be about 5.5, but he was having a hard time telling for sure. I'm glad I did it too, couldn't have been a better time for it considering I gained 3 pounds over the weekend with all the drinking and the pizza. lol I had been down to 191 on Saturday.
Well, hopefully with the new fill, and being able to exercise again I'll be back on track here shortly. I'm hoping for 2-3 pounds a week from here. Maybe more if I get my lazy but up and do some more work.
Current weight: 194lbs.
Well, hopefully with the new fill, and being able to exercise again I'll be back on track here shortly. I'm hoping for 2-3 pounds a week from here. Maybe more if I get my lazy but up and do some more work.
Current weight: 194lbs.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
10 Pounds up.
I've been MIA because I've been busy and eating like crazy. I got all the fluid out on the 3rd, because of the damn pork chop I ate, and for the last week I've been eating everything I knew I wasn't gonna be able to get down soon. I had Olive Garden bread sticks, pizza, pasta, and lots and lots of bread! Sandwiches, toast, etc. I've been a very bad girl. Now, I haven't been eating seconds (except once) and I still wasn't eating all that much in general. Just alot of carbs and stuff.
I didn't do too bad, or at least not as bad as I thought I would. In the first week I was gaining about 1-2 pounds a day, then it must have leveled off a little because I only gained 10 pounds, when I expected to gain 15-20 in that amount of time.
Either way, I've got fluid in there now, though, I'm not sure it's enough. And I'll go back in in a week or so to get some more once this settles. It doesn't feel like enough right now, but maybe tomorrow it'll feel more restrictive. That's usually how it goes.
Current weight: 205lbs.
I didn't do too bad, or at least not as bad as I thought I would. In the first week I was gaining about 1-2 pounds a day, then it must have leveled off a little because I only gained 10 pounds, when I expected to gain 15-20 in that amount of time.
Either way, I've got fluid in there now, though, I'm not sure it's enough. And I'll go back in in a week or so to get some more once this settles. It doesn't feel like enough right now, but maybe tomorrow it'll feel more restrictive. That's usually how it goes.
Current weight: 205lbs.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Picture
My weight is up a teensy bit this morning, but I'm still at 204. I had a boob fill yesterday, so that makes sense. I do weigh more. I'm walking at lunch again now, so hopefully this plateau will pass and I'll drop a few pounds soon. heh. Not likely. Only a couple more weeks till I can exercise for real. Elliptical! Here I come!
So here is a comparison shot, not the best two pictures I ever had. I really wish I'd gotten one taken yesterday. I wasn't wearing two shirts yesterday, so it was easier to see how much thinner I was, and easier to see my waist, but... whatever.
You can kinda see that my hands are thinner, and there's a big difference in my face. My facial features (eyes, nose, etc) look bigger because there's not as much around them to make them look small! Also, the shot on the left is not me at my biggest, but it was closest to the angle of the one on the right. I have some actual before shots with less clothes that need to be posted too, but I don't wanna till I have the matching after shots.
Current weight: 204lbs
So here is a comparison shot, not the best two pictures I ever had. I really wish I'd gotten one taken yesterday. I wasn't wearing two shirts yesterday, so it was easier to see how much thinner I was, and easier to see my waist, but... whatever.
You can kinda see that my hands are thinner, and there's a big difference in my face. My facial features (eyes, nose, etc) look bigger because there's not as much around them to make them look small! Also, the shot on the left is not me at my biggest, but it was closest to the angle of the one on the right. I have some actual before shots with less clothes that need to be posted too, but I don't wanna till I have the matching after shots.
Current weight: 204lbs
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Back to work tomorrow
I've gained several pounds since last monday. It doesn't help that I'm home all day and bored. I went to the grocery store yesterday at got snacks. Candy and cookies and chips. Yeah, so very nutritious. blech. I'm a little grouchy today because my sleep pattern is all messed up from being out of work for over a week, and I had to get up earlier today so it'll be easier to get up early tomorrow.
Anyway, just checking in. Don't feel like a big post right now. Maybe tomorrow.
Current weight: 217
Anyway, just checking in. Don't feel like a big post right now. Maybe tomorrow.
Current weight: 217
Monday, August 24, 2009
This week was a wash.
This week sucked, weight loss wise. Not only have I not lost weight, I've gained! I know what I did wrong. So I know why it's this way, but I'm still not happy about it. I've been eating like I'm starving. I keep trying to shove things in my mouth that I shouldn't be. On top of that, I've been drawing out my eating. Somewhere inside, I keep feeling like I'm not eating enough, so when I get full, I stop for a few minutes, then go eat some more. Grr. WTF is wrong with me?
Then, in addition to the bad eating, I also went out drinking Saturday. Which is so not good. Especially since I was drinking White Russians, which have cream or half-n-half in them. So talk about liquid calories! I ate a really greasy deep fried onion ring while I was there too. Mmmm tasty.
On the exercise front I did pretty good last week. If it hadn't been for the food, I would have probably lost a few pounds. I did the elliptical twice, and went running once, and the rest of the week I walked. Even on my day off!!
About the run... that was great. I got a knee brace, because the last couple times I ran I had trouble with it because my knee, and leg started hurting so bad I was limping home. Well, the knee brace worked wonders. It didn't hurt at all, except for the general soreness you get all over from running. Now that my right knee doesn't hurt so much, I'm finding that my left knee is on it's way out too. lol - so I'm gonna have to get a second one, and I'll be running with two braces on. I did 8 out of 9 run segments by the way! Go me! So I'm officially starting week one of the Couch to 5k. I'll be doing "Day 2" on Wednesday. I was going to do it today, but I forgot to bring my knee brace with me. Maybe if I have time, I'll do it after work. Maybe. Don't count on it though.
So, back to the weight talk... I'm back up to 222 lbs. which isn't a horrible amount back on, but it negates this whole week. Unless on my official day I'm down like 3 pounds, then I can't even count this week for loss.
Current weight: 222lbs.
Then, in addition to the bad eating, I also went out drinking Saturday. Which is so not good. Especially since I was drinking White Russians, which have cream or half-n-half in them. So talk about liquid calories! I ate a really greasy deep fried onion ring while I was there too. Mmmm tasty.
On the exercise front I did pretty good last week. If it hadn't been for the food, I would have probably lost a few pounds. I did the elliptical twice, and went running once, and the rest of the week I walked. Even on my day off!!
About the run... that was great. I got a knee brace, because the last couple times I ran I had trouble with it because my knee, and leg started hurting so bad I was limping home. Well, the knee brace worked wonders. It didn't hurt at all, except for the general soreness you get all over from running. Now that my right knee doesn't hurt so much, I'm finding that my left knee is on it's way out too. lol - so I'm gonna have to get a second one, and I'll be running with two braces on. I did 8 out of 9 run segments by the way! Go me! So I'm officially starting week one of the Couch to 5k. I'll be doing "Day 2" on Wednesday. I was going to do it today, but I forgot to bring my knee brace with me. Maybe if I have time, I'll do it after work. Maybe. Don't count on it though.
So, back to the weight talk... I'm back up to 222 lbs. which isn't a horrible amount back on, but it negates this whole week. Unless on my official day I'm down like 3 pounds, then I can't even count this week for loss.
Current weight: 222lbs.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Missing Weigh In
Grr. So I weighed myself today on the Wii, and it totally forgot that I checked it yesterday. So now there's no official record of my 221 achievement. Which broke my 11 week record. And on top of that, I'm back up to 222 today. Damn. And that's even without CAKE! lol
Here's what I ate yesterday:
Breakfast - 1 SF Rice Pudding
Lunch - 1/2 cup of chicken chowder with two melba toasts (a single serving packet)
Snack - 3 meatballs with spag sauce, and a small bite of noodles.
Dinner - 1/4 of a Supreme Nachos and 3 bites of pintos and cheese (Taco Bell)
Drinks (with calories) - 10 oz of CranGrape juice. (approx. 180 cals)
(I don't normally list the rest of my drinks cause they don't have calories. Its usually water or tea with splenda.)
So I probably ate a little more than I have been, but still not very much. I'm not beating myself up about it because, honestly, I'm supposed to be eating a cup of food at every meal, three times a day, and I know I haven't been. It's been far less on average.
For exercise yesterday I got in about 35 mins. of walking. I would have done more, but I didn't have my phone with me, and therefore no time/watch. I didn't want to be late. I have it today though, and I plan to do the elliptical at lunch, and a half hour after work too. Hopefully I'll be back to 221 tomorrow, or even better, 220. We'll see. I'm not holding high hopes for this week.
Current weight: 222lbs.
Here's what I ate yesterday:
Breakfast - 1 SF Rice Pudding
Lunch - 1/2 cup of chicken chowder with two melba toasts (a single serving packet)
Snack - 3 meatballs with spag sauce, and a small bite of noodles.
Dinner - 1/4 of a Supreme Nachos and 3 bites of pintos and cheese (Taco Bell)
Drinks (with calories) - 10 oz of CranGrape juice. (approx. 180 cals)
(I don't normally list the rest of my drinks cause they don't have calories. Its usually water or tea with splenda.)
So I probably ate a little more than I have been, but still not very much. I'm not beating myself up about it because, honestly, I'm supposed to be eating a cup of food at every meal, three times a day, and I know I haven't been. It's been far less on average.
For exercise yesterday I got in about 35 mins. of walking. I would have done more, but I didn't have my phone with me, and therefore no time/watch. I didn't want to be late. I have it today though, and I plan to do the elliptical at lunch, and a half hour after work too. Hopefully I'll be back to 221 tomorrow, or even better, 220. We'll see. I'm not holding high hopes for this week.
Current weight: 222lbs.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Down then Up
I weighed myself Sunday and was down to 222 lbs! Freakin' Yay!! But I wasn't eating well on Friday, or Saturday for that matter, and that all caught up to me today. Stepped on the scale today and I was back up about a half pound. Enough to shove me back to 223 lbs. That's ok though. It's Monday, and that's a common occurrence for Mondays. I'll be back to 222 by tomorrow I'm sure. I usually am.
For exercise this weekend, I was supposed to go back to the Couch to 5k program, Saturday, with my BF, but there was this big hullabaloo and long story short, I didn't go. To make up for it, I walked to Eugene from my house yesterday, which is a 2.5 hour walk. I did the elliptical today, which I really didn't want to do, but needed to do. I think I'm going to stick to that for this week instead of running. I'll wait till I weigh a little less to start the running back up again. The last two times I tried, my right leg/knee hurt really badly. I don't want to mess it up. I don't want to make excuses either, so that's why I'm back to the elliptical. Besides, there are cute guys in the gym. lol
According to the machine, I burned over 200 cals. on the elliptical today, and so far I've only had one SF Rice pudding to eat, and my vitamins. So I've burned more than I've taken in. I haven't had lunch yet, cause I wasn't hungry after working out. I have another SF pudding sitting here, open, untouched. I was gonna have eggs, but never had time to go down and buy them. And now, it's almost time to go home.
Oh well, what can you do? I guess I won't feel as guilty for snacking later at home this way.
Current weight: 223 lbs.
For exercise this weekend, I was supposed to go back to the Couch to 5k program, Saturday, with my BF, but there was this big hullabaloo and long story short, I didn't go. To make up for it, I walked to Eugene from my house yesterday, which is a 2.5 hour walk. I did the elliptical today, which I really didn't want to do, but needed to do. I think I'm going to stick to that for this week instead of running. I'll wait till I weigh a little less to start the running back up again. The last two times I tried, my right leg/knee hurt really badly. I don't want to mess it up. I don't want to make excuses either, so that's why I'm back to the elliptical. Besides, there are cute guys in the gym. lol
According to the machine, I burned over 200 cals. on the elliptical today, and so far I've only had one SF Rice pudding to eat, and my vitamins. So I've burned more than I've taken in. I haven't had lunch yet, cause I wasn't hungry after working out. I have another SF pudding sitting here, open, untouched. I was gonna have eggs, but never had time to go down and buy them. And now, it's almost time to go home.
Oh well, what can you do? I guess I won't feel as guilty for snacking later at home this way.
Current weight: 223 lbs.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Good News bad news Good News
Good news: I went down a pound point two yesterday.
Bad news: I'm back up a pound point three today.
Good news: I called to make my appointment for my fill, at the end of this month, they didn't have any available for Dr. Yarbrough except for TODAY!
I'm like... no freakin' way! I can do that?? YES! So I'm leaving work early, and racing home to get my numbing cream stuff, and then racing back to get to my appointment!
Yay Me!! I should be back down to 237 (or smaller) by freakin' Friday!!
Current weight: 238lbs.
Bad news: I'm back up a pound point three today.
Good news: I called to make my appointment for my fill, at the end of this month, they didn't have any available for Dr. Yarbrough except for TODAY!
I'm like... no freakin' way! I can do that?? YES! So I'm leaving work early, and racing home to get my numbing cream stuff, and then racing back to get to my appointment!
Yay Me!! I should be back down to 237 (or smaller) by freakin' Friday!!
Current weight: 238lbs.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Can't..resist.....must.have...treats...
Weigh in this morning sucked. I'm up .7 lbs. Luckily still holding steady in the 239, but if I keep eating like I did yesterday, I'm gonna have problems.
I know I haven't gotten my first fill yet, but any gain feels like failure. Especially after eating everything I could get my hands on yesterday. I know, it's NOTHING like how I ate before. All those bites that I took would have been whole items instead of just bites. I would have eaten the whole salad, and gotten myself a whole dessert. Actually, I probably wouldn't have gotten a salad. I would have gotten an appetizer, and a big burger or steak, and eaten it all. I have nothing to be ashamed of for eating what I ate yesterday. It was bad, but still, just a drop in the bucket comparatively.
I did get in my exercise yesterday. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical at the gym. I'm walking today. Tomorrow I'll get back on the elliptical and do 20 minutes instead. The 15 was just because I was chicken. I wasn't sure I could do it, so I set it low. I was fine, and probably could have gone another 5-10 minutes. My legs would have been rubber, but I could have done it. Hopefully by Thursday I'll be over my monthly issues too, which makes the whole shower/change thing easier too.
So today I'm trying to switch up my eating a little. I didn't eat on my first break like I usually do. I'm drinking water instead, trying to get down about 20+ ounces before I eat. I snacked on 3 radishes while I was drinking water to keep the hunger down a bit. I figure they have almost no calories, so it doesn't hurt me to eat them and drink at the same time. I just looked it up, and a whole cup of radish slices is only 19-23 calories, depending on what site you look at. Nothing. lol
I'm trying to push back when I eat, so that I'm not so hungry after work. That's when I get the most trouble. I get home, start snacking, and it turns into what you saw yesterday. I need to be full when I get home so I don't feel the need to graze. I sure can't wait for my fill. I would love to feel as full as I did the weekend after surgery. Yeesh.
Here is the list of what I'm eating today:
For breakfast I'm having a can of tuna (80 cals) with 1/2 a tomato (15 cals) chopped in, and about 1 1/2 tablespoons of miracle whip (55 cals). For lunch I brought a can of cream of celery soup. I know, no protein, but an easy way to fill my belly with low calories. It's only 90 calories per serving, so even if I eat the whole can I'll only get about 225 calories.
Total for breakfast and lunch: 375 cals.
For dinner I have planned to make baked lemon chicken with mushroom sauce. I'm going to try my hand at wild rice on the side, and probably a salad. I'm not very good at making rice though, so wish me luck.
So if I eat a chicken breast with some rice, the lemon chicken is about 392 calories, and the rice is about 82 calories for a half cup.
Total for dinner: 474 cals. (if I eat the whole chicken breast)
Total for the day: 849 cals.
Assuming that I don't snack. Wish me luck.
Current weight: 239 lbs.
I know I haven't gotten my first fill yet, but any gain feels like failure. Especially after eating everything I could get my hands on yesterday. I know, it's NOTHING like how I ate before. All those bites that I took would have been whole items instead of just bites. I would have eaten the whole salad, and gotten myself a whole dessert. Actually, I probably wouldn't have gotten a salad. I would have gotten an appetizer, and a big burger or steak, and eaten it all. I have nothing to be ashamed of for eating what I ate yesterday. It was bad, but still, just a drop in the bucket comparatively.
I did get in my exercise yesterday. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical at the gym. I'm walking today. Tomorrow I'll get back on the elliptical and do 20 minutes instead. The 15 was just because I was chicken. I wasn't sure I could do it, so I set it low. I was fine, and probably could have gone another 5-10 minutes. My legs would have been rubber, but I could have done it. Hopefully by Thursday I'll be over my monthly issues too, which makes the whole shower/change thing easier too.
So today I'm trying to switch up my eating a little. I didn't eat on my first break like I usually do. I'm drinking water instead, trying to get down about 20+ ounces before I eat. I snacked on 3 radishes while I was drinking water to keep the hunger down a bit. I figure they have almost no calories, so it doesn't hurt me to eat them and drink at the same time. I just looked it up, and a whole cup of radish slices is only 19-23 calories, depending on what site you look at. Nothing. lol
I'm trying to push back when I eat, so that I'm not so hungry after work. That's when I get the most trouble. I get home, start snacking, and it turns into what you saw yesterday. I need to be full when I get home so I don't feel the need to graze. I sure can't wait for my fill. I would love to feel as full as I did the weekend after surgery. Yeesh.
Here is the list of what I'm eating today:
For breakfast I'm having a can of tuna (80 cals) with 1/2 a tomato (15 cals) chopped in, and about 1 1/2 tablespoons of miracle whip (55 cals). For lunch I brought a can of cream of celery soup. I know, no protein, but an easy way to fill my belly with low calories. It's only 90 calories per serving, so even if I eat the whole can I'll only get about 225 calories.
Total for breakfast and lunch: 375 cals.
For dinner I have planned to make baked lemon chicken with mushroom sauce. I'm going to try my hand at wild rice on the side, and probably a salad. I'm not very good at making rice though, so wish me luck.
So if I eat a chicken breast with some rice, the lemon chicken is about 392 calories, and the rice is about 82 calories for a half cup.
Total for dinner: 474 cals. (if I eat the whole chicken breast)
Total for the day: 849 cals.
Assuming that I don't snack. Wish me luck.
Current weight: 239 lbs.
Monday, July 13, 2009
That Funny Feeling
My weight is up by .4 lbs, which puts me back in the 239 pounds area, as of this morning. I was sad to break my losing streak, but not entirely surprised. Weekends are not good for me. I have a bit of a co-dependent thing with my boyfriend, and when he gets snacky, guess who also gets snacky? On top of that, I made mac-n-cheese at the request of my daughter, and ate some. I knew I shouldn't but I just couldn't help it!
I know it's only .4 pounds, but I'm supposed to be losing weight, not gaining it back!
Needless to say, I was disappointed this morning. I'm sure it'll be back down soon though. I'm on the tail end of my "monthly issues" and I'm sure I'll drop a bit once I'm all done there. I also walked 40 minutes yesterday, and 40 minutes today. I plan to do it again the rest of this week too.
I remembered to bring my food for breakfast and lunch today, teriyaki chicken and apple sauce. (for both.. the chicken was leftovers)
When I was eating lunch today, I got one of those reminder jolts that I have something stopping me from eating. I got through with my chicken - protein first! - and started my applesauce. I got about 3 bites when I got this ... heavy feeling in my gut. I took one more bite and stopped. I only took that last bite because it was already half in my mouth when I felt the heaviness. It's a really good thing that I picked the smaller piece of chicken for my lunch, or I probably would have PB'd. lol
Which I haven't yet done, btw.
Current weight: 239 lbs.
I know it's only .4 pounds, but I'm supposed to be losing weight, not gaining it back!
I remembered to bring my food for breakfast and lunch today, teriyaki chicken and apple sauce. (for both.. the chicken was leftovers)
When I was eating lunch today, I got one of those reminder jolts that I have something stopping me from eating. I got through with my chicken - protein first! - and started my applesauce. I got about 3 bites when I got this ... heavy feeling in my gut. I took one more bite and stopped. I only took that last bite because it was already half in my mouth when I felt the heaviness. It's a really good thing that I picked the smaller piece of chicken for my lunch, or I probably would have PB'd. lol
Which I haven't yet done, btw.
Current weight: 239 lbs.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Holding Steady
How did I do on my goals yesterday?
I got in 1 set of "Squat/Shoulders/Sky"
I didn't get any French in. Just plain forgot.
I made enough shakes for today and tomorrow, and maybe a little leftover for Saturday.
I got in a 20 minute walk with my daughter. It was actually 25-30.
Still at 240, so I haven't gotten to 239 yet. No progress at all on that front.
So my legs are sore from the "Squat/Shoulders/Sky" yesterday, but I did manage to get one in already this morning. I just need one more to make my goals today. I had my shake this morning, like a good girl. Just 8 oz., as directed.
On my weight: Yesterday when I got home, I jumped on the Wii to see if I was down any, but unfortunately I was actually up 2 lbs. I guess that's what I get for weighing twice in a day. Naughty naughty. So I weighed in again this morning. That 2 lbs was gone, and I was back to the even 240 that I was before. That was a relief. I was so worried that that extra 2 would stick.
I'm going to work really hard to make sure my goals are met today. Also, I forgot my lunch. (half a can of chicken ranchero chili that I prepared in a dish to bring to work.) So I'm totally pissed at myself for that. I don't know if I want to go home and eat that or just get something here. Going home would be far cheaper, even with gas prices... I'll probably do that.
Current weight: 240 lbs.
I got in 1 set of "Squat/Shoulders/Sky"
I didn't get any French in. Just plain forgot.
I made enough shakes for today and tomorrow, and maybe a little leftover for Saturday.
I got in a 20 minute walk with my daughter. It was actually 25-30.
Still at 240, so I haven't gotten to 239 yet. No progress at all on that front.
So my legs are sore from the "Squat/Shoulders/Sky" yesterday, but I did manage to get one in already this morning. I just need one more to make my goals today. I had my shake this morning, like a good girl. Just 8 oz., as directed.
On my weight: Yesterday when I got home, I jumped on the Wii to see if I was down any, but unfortunately I was actually up 2 lbs. I guess that's what I get for weighing twice in a day. Naughty naughty. So I weighed in again this morning. That 2 lbs was gone, and I was back to the even 240 that I was before. That was a relief. I was so worried that that extra 2 would stick.
I'm going to work really hard to make sure my goals are met today. Also, I forgot my lunch. (half a can of chicken ranchero chili that I prepared in a dish to bring to work.) So I'm totally pissed at myself for that. I don't know if I want to go home and eat that or just get something here. Going home would be far cheaper, even with gas prices... I'll probably do that.
Current weight: 240 lbs.
Friday, July 3, 2009
10 Pounds down!
So after surgery, I wasn't able to eat much. That's to be expected, from all the swelling and stuff. I got home and relaxed a bunch, and the first couple days I weighed myself, Tuesday, and Wednesday, I actually gained some weight. I was really expecting this because of all the "last meals" that I ate last week. I went a little crazy with all the foods I figured would be hard to eat after the band. I was also eating ice cream and other stuff that I shouldn't eat.
My last weigh in before banding was at 247 lbs, at the center to verify that I was on task. That was Tuesday of last week. This last Tuesday, the day I came home from the hospital, I weighed in at 256 lbs. The next day I'd gained another half pound or so. Like I said, I expected all this, because of what I ate, and all the swelling that I had from surgery. Oh, also because I hadn't pooped since Monday (TMI I know, but I want to make sure that I say everything here.)
Yesterday, Thursday, when I weighed myself I was down by a little over 6 lbs!! That was the entire amount that I'd gained from my little discretions. I thought at that point that I was back on track. That was just some loss from swelling and whatnot. So today when I weighed in I figured, 2 maybe 3 pounds... But I got a nice surprise when I saw over 5 pounds lost!! OMG. This is going faster than I thought. Being on stage 2, mushies, is really working out for me. So from my first day out of surgery weight, I've lost a total of about 11 lbs. (I wrote 10 in the title because I like even numbers... lol)
Current weight: 245lbs.
My last weigh in before banding was at 247 lbs, at the center to verify that I was on task. That was Tuesday of last week. This last Tuesday, the day I came home from the hospital, I weighed in at 256 lbs. The next day I'd gained another half pound or so. Like I said, I expected all this, because of what I ate, and all the swelling that I had from surgery. Oh, also because I hadn't pooped since Monday (TMI I know, but I want to make sure that I say everything here.)
Yesterday, Thursday, when I weighed myself I was down by a little over 6 lbs!! That was the entire amount that I'd gained from my little discretions. I thought at that point that I was back on track. That was just some loss from swelling and whatnot. So today when I weighed in I figured, 2 maybe 3 pounds... But I got a nice surprise when I saw over 5 pounds lost!! OMG. This is going faster than I thought. Being on stage 2, mushies, is really working out for me. So from my first day out of surgery weight, I've lost a total of about 11 lbs. (I wrote 10 in the title because I like even numbers... lol)
Current weight: 245lbs.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Rolling along
Well, there's been alot since the last time I blogged here. I've been busy, life full of stuff to do and all that.
I was tasked to lose 10 lbs before I could get my surgery. I've been trying to do that for the last 3 months. It's surprising how hard something can be if you put your mind to it. heh. I purposely weighted myself down for my first weigh-in so I figured that my subsequent weigh-ins would be easier. But no. I ended up going up 5 lbs. Which I lost later, but then went back up 2 and down several more. To the point where my last weigh in I was back to the original weight that I'd been before. I've been weighing on my Wii too, to try to keep track. I was able to get down to 6-8lbs left by normal dieting.
Well, for the last 2 weeks'ish I've been on SlimFast to try to lose the last 6lbs of the 10 that I was supposed to lose. So far it's working. I've lost about 5 lbs according to the Wii. I'm afraid to go in and weigh in officially though, because it never says what I think it should.
I've now been through my 3 nutrition classes. I didn't learn much that I didn't already know. I got some good recommendations about protein shake stuff, one was pretty good. It kinda tastes like pudding, only thinner. I also found out about this liquid calcium supplement that was pretty good too.
I'm truly hoping that when I get home from work today, I'll be down another 2 lbs. I messed up a little Saturday, and went to Home Town Buffet. I didn't eat ANYTHING else that day though, except a piece of cheese. So I didn't think it would impact me much. It didn't really, I didn't gain anything from it, but I stalled my losses too.
Wish me luck that I've lost another pound or two. I'm STARVING right now. heh.
Current weight: 249 lbs.
Time to WLS approval: As soon as I lose the rest of my 10 lbs. I think.
I was tasked to lose 10 lbs before I could get my surgery. I've been trying to do that for the last 3 months. It's surprising how hard something can be if you put your mind to it. heh. I purposely weighted myself down for my first weigh-in so I figured that my subsequent weigh-ins would be easier. But no. I ended up going up 5 lbs. Which I lost later, but then went back up 2 and down several more. To the point where my last weigh in I was back to the original weight that I'd been before. I've been weighing on my Wii too, to try to keep track. I was able to get down to 6-8lbs left by normal dieting.
Well, for the last 2 weeks'ish I've been on SlimFast to try to lose the last 6lbs of the 10 that I was supposed to lose. So far it's working. I've lost about 5 lbs according to the Wii. I'm afraid to go in and weigh in officially though, because it never says what I think it should.
I've now been through my 3 nutrition classes. I didn't learn much that I didn't already know. I got some good recommendations about protein shake stuff, one was pretty good. It kinda tastes like pudding, only thinner. I also found out about this liquid calcium supplement that was pretty good too.
I'm truly hoping that when I get home from work today, I'll be down another 2 lbs. I messed up a little Saturday, and went to Home Town Buffet. I didn't eat ANYTHING else that day though, except a piece of cheese. So I didn't think it would impact me much. It didn't really, I didn't gain anything from it, but I stalled my losses too.
Wish me luck that I've lost another pound or two. I'm STARVING right now. heh.
Current weight: 249 lbs.
Time to WLS approval: As soon as I lose the rest of my 10 lbs. I think.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Hungry
I'm dreaming of a brownie. I just ate a chicken salad, and then a half hour later 2 pieces of chicken stuffed manicotti. Now I'm dying for that brownie.
I'm supposed to be losing weight. I still have over 7 lbs. to lose. I'm not sure I'm going to make it. My next appointment is next week, and I think that's my deadline. The appointment is on Tuesday.
I'm thinking about buying some slim fast or boost and doing liquids for 1-2 days. I think that would work off about 5lbs. If I get super close to what I'm supposed to lose, I think they'll forgive me my other two pounds. Don't you think?
On other fronts, I had a stack of medical bills from my cancer last year, that I'm not able to pay. They are taking me to court for the amount I owe, and may be garnishing my wages. If they do that, I won't be able to afford my surgery.
I really hope that I can put them off long enough to get the surgery done. After that, I won't stress. I'm declaring bankruptcy anyway, but if I can't get my surgery this year, I can't get my reconstruction and I'm giving up on the whole thing.
I'm bordering on depressed because of all this. I really don't think I have it in me to fight this fight.
Wish me luck.
Current weight: 257lbs
Time to WLS approval: 1 mo. 3 weeks.
I'm supposed to be losing weight. I still have over 7 lbs. to lose. I'm not sure I'm going to make it. My next appointment is next week, and I think that's my deadline. The appointment is on Tuesday.
I'm thinking about buying some slim fast or boost and doing liquids for 1-2 days. I think that would work off about 5lbs. If I get super close to what I'm supposed to lose, I think they'll forgive me my other two pounds. Don't you think?
On other fronts, I had a stack of medical bills from my cancer last year, that I'm not able to pay. They are taking me to court for the amount I owe, and may be garnishing my wages. If they do that, I won't be able to afford my surgery.
I really hope that I can put them off long enough to get the surgery done. After that, I won't stress. I'm declaring bankruptcy anyway, but if I can't get my surgery this year, I can't get my reconstruction and I'm giving up on the whole thing.
I'm bordering on depressed because of all this. I really don't think I have it in me to fight this fight.
Wish me luck.
Current weight: 257lbs
Time to WLS approval: 1 mo. 3 weeks.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Now I'm here, How do I get down?
Ok, so I made it to my gain goal of 250. I wanted to be safe and have a cushion against the next few months of dieting. I hate being here. This is my highest weight ever. It was where I got to that made me decide to get the WLS. It was before I started eating like a WLS'er and before I lost 10 pounds. I had gotten down to 239 at one point before I tried regaining the weight. The weight was hard to gain back.
It took me several weeks to get to 246'ish, and then several more to get to 250. Now I'm tipping the scales in the evening to 251... and I'm trying to get back to dieting and I'm failing miserably. I had trained myself not to eat, then trained myself to eat more, and now I'm trying to get back into loosing again, although slower this time.
I feel like I'm superman, trying to stop a speeding train. You know how in the cartoons it takes him several blocks before the train actually stops? And his feet drag on the ground pulling up the all the train ties? Well that's me. I'm fighting this big train that just wants to keep moving on inertia.
I will be so happy to see249 239 again. lol.
Current weight: 250
Time to WLS approval: 4 months, 9 days.
It took me several weeks to get to 246'ish, and then several more to get to 250. Now I'm tipping the scales in the evening to 251... and I'm trying to get back to dieting and I'm failing miserably. I had trained myself not to eat, then trained myself to eat more, and now I'm trying to get back into loosing again, although slower this time.
I feel like I'm superman, trying to stop a speeding train. You know how in the cartoons it takes him several blocks before the train actually stops? And his feet drag on the ground pulling up the all the train ties? Well that's me. I'm fighting this big train that just wants to keep moving on inertia.
I will be so happy to see
Current weight: 250
Time to WLS approval: 4 months, 9 days.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I want off the rollercoaster.
Yesterday's weight: 250
Ok, this is where I need to be to start my diet. To make sure that I won't lose too much thereby blocking my surgery. It sure don't feel very good though!
I hate weighing this much. My ankles hurt, my feet hurt, and my knees feel like they'll split open whenever I bend them. Luckily I'll be able to lose a little soon. I'll lose about 10-12 pounds over the next 5.5 months. So that's about 2 pounds a month if I want to stay safely over the BMI limit.
Yay me!!
Every day that goes by I get more excited. More hopeful. I read blogs of people who have already had the surgery, there seems to be a proliferation of people who got banded or RNY in the year 2005. So luckily for me, I am able to read the entire story. From the struggles to the easy-peasy. I hope I fall into the easy-peasy category. I don't want to be obsessed with food every day of my life. I'd like to be the ".. it's ok. I like food, I eat food, I just eat less food" people.
Ok, this is where I need to be to start my diet. To make sure that I won't lose too much thereby blocking my surgery. It sure don't feel very good though!
I hate weighing this much. My ankles hurt, my feet hurt, and my knees feel like they'll split open whenever I bend them. Luckily I'll be able to lose a little soon. I'll lose about 10-12 pounds over the next 5.5 months. So that's about 2 pounds a month if I want to stay safely over the BMI limit.
Yay me!!
Every day that goes by I get more excited. More hopeful. I read blogs of people who have already had the surgery, there seems to be a proliferation of people who got banded or RNY in the year 2005. So luckily for me, I am able to read the entire story. From the struggles to the easy-peasy. I hope I fall into the easy-peasy category. I don't want to be obsessed with food every day of my life. I'd like to be the ".. it's ok. I like food, I eat food, I just eat less food" people.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Food
The things we learn about food when we're forced to eat too much:
What I didn't count on was that my stomach was smaller from not eating so much, so when I tried to eat more..... *blech* Food is gross. For the past few days I have been consuming an average of 3700 calories per day. I'm eating the worst for you stuff I could find and I hate it.
I always used to laugh at my boyfriend. There was a time when he was only 140 lbs, and he's 6'1". He was always upset because he was "too skinny" which makes sense for a guy and especially one that tall. He was always trying to gain weight, but pretty much no matter what he did it didn't happen. Eventually, and after much laziness and stomach expanding, he was able to gain weight and looked pretty normal, no longer skinny. Now, he's gotten used to being lazy and eating alot and he weighs more than he wants... go figure! LOL So he's a little on the chunky side.
So, my point on that was, that I used to laugh at him, when he tried to gain weight. That whole, "If only I had that problem!" I wanted to be too skinny too, and now, although I am obviously not too skinny for most things (I'm actually morbidly obese) I am nearly too skinny to get the surgery I need to no longer be morbidly obese. So now, I had 10 days... yes, only 10 days, to gain 10 pounds. Yikes. Well, not 10 whole pounds, more like 8, I had already gained 2 in the weeks leading up to this. I succeeded in gaining 5. I didn't gain 10. I gained 5. Arg. And today is the day I'm supposed to reduce my calories by 200. Luckily I was fibbing on my tally, and where my Diet Coke should be, I put in Coke. So I have a fictitious extra 300 or so calories I can take away without actually doing it.
I'm truly afraid, that when I start cutting the calories back, my body will do what it wants to do and lose weight. I know, again, that sounds horrible. After all, my whole goal is to lose weight, and you know what? I could. I could lose some weight without the surgery. BUT. I could probably only lose about 30 pounds. Where will that get me? I'll be too skinny to get the surgery, I'll be stuck at that weight -- which is still too heavy, and I will eventually gain it back, because that's how life is. I won't have anything stopping me from eating too much, I'll become complacent and my stomach will stretch from eating just a little too much - often - and food will no longer be gross. I'll gain it back and then more, and my skin will stretch more and my stretch marks will get worse. I'll be 300 pounds and really need the surgery but then I'll not have a job because I lost it after a bout of depression caused me to stay home too much and I won't have insurance and I'll just get even bigger!!!!! Or, my sleep apnea will kill me while I sleep.
Ok, so a little melodramatic, but that's just me. These are my fears and I don't want to live like this anymore.
- Food is gross!
- Don't eat too much.
- Food is gross!
- I don't like that.
- Food is gross!
What I didn't count on was that my stomach was smaller from not eating so much, so when I tried to eat more..... *blech* Food is gross. For the past few days I have been consuming an average of 3700 calories per day. I'm eating the worst for you stuff I could find and I hate it.
I always used to laugh at my boyfriend. There was a time when he was only 140 lbs, and he's 6'1". He was always upset because he was "too skinny" which makes sense for a guy and especially one that tall. He was always trying to gain weight, but pretty much no matter what he did it didn't happen. Eventually, and after much laziness and stomach expanding, he was able to gain weight and looked pretty normal, no longer skinny. Now, he's gotten used to being lazy and eating alot and he weighs more than he wants... go figure! LOL So he's a little on the chunky side.
So, my point on that was, that I used to laugh at him, when he tried to gain weight. That whole, "If only I had that problem!" I wanted to be too skinny too, and now, although I am obviously not too skinny for most things (I'm actually morbidly obese) I am nearly too skinny to get the surgery I need to no longer be morbidly obese. So now, I had 10 days... yes, only 10 days, to gain 10 pounds. Yikes. Well, not 10 whole pounds, more like 8, I had already gained 2 in the weeks leading up to this. I succeeded in gaining 5. I didn't gain 10. I gained 5. Arg. And today is the day I'm supposed to reduce my calories by 200. Luckily I was fibbing on my tally, and where my Diet Coke should be, I put in Coke. So I have a fictitious extra 300 or so calories I can take away without actually doing it.
I'm truly afraid, that when I start cutting the calories back, my body will do what it wants to do and lose weight. I know, again, that sounds horrible. After all, my whole goal is to lose weight, and you know what? I could. I could lose some weight without the surgery. BUT. I could probably only lose about 30 pounds. Where will that get me? I'll be too skinny to get the surgery, I'll be stuck at that weight -- which is still too heavy, and I will eventually gain it back, because that's how life is. I won't have anything stopping me from eating too much, I'll become complacent and my stomach will stretch from eating just a little too much - often - and food will no longer be gross. I'll gain it back and then more, and my skin will stretch more and my stretch marks will get worse. I'll be 300 pounds and really need the surgery but then I'll not have a job because I lost it after a bout of depression caused me to stay home too much and I won't have insurance and I'll just get even bigger!!!!! Or, my sleep apnea will kill me while I sleep.
Ok, so a little melodramatic, but that's just me. These are my fears and I don't want to live like this anymore.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Eating and Tracking
So, as you know I'm on the doctor monitored weight-loss plan. I'm 7 days into my 10 day tracking. Here's the google calender that you can see what I ate on:
(Note: I think you need a google account to see it...?)
You can see if you view it that I'm doing a very good job eating like a fat girl. I even gained back about 3 of the pounds I lost recently. It's upsetting to see that on the scale, but ultimately my goal is to get the surgery so I can see ALOT fall off. So if that means sacrificing my dignity for a few months, so be it. I've been fat for 10 years. A few more months isn't going to cause me any more distress. Is it?
I did pad it a little so I have some wiggle room to cut calories without losing too much weight. Most of the "Coke" you see on there is actually Diet Coke. No calories. I put it as regular coke so I can cut an easy 200 calories out of my diet, thereby extending the amount of time it takes to lose the weight.
I'm figuring at the rate that he has me cutting calories I'll lose about 16 pounds. Not good. I need to figure out how to cut that in half or less. Preferably like a pound a month average.
(Note: I think you need a google account to see it...?)
You can see if you view it that I'm doing a very good job eating like a fat girl. I even gained back about 3 of the pounds I lost recently. It's upsetting to see that on the scale, but ultimately my goal is to get the surgery so I can see ALOT fall off. So if that means sacrificing my dignity for a few months, so be it. I've been fat for 10 years. A few more months isn't going to cause me any more distress. Is it?
I did pad it a little so I have some wiggle room to cut calories without losing too much weight. Most of the "Coke" you see on there is actually Diet Coke. No calories. I put it as regular coke so I can cut an easy 200 calories out of my diet, thereby extending the amount of time it takes to lose the weight.
I'm figuring at the rate that he has me cutting calories I'll lose about 16 pounds. Not good. I need to figure out how to cut that in half or less. Preferably like a pound a month average.
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