Giving myself permission

I haven't been running, watching what I eat, or writing on this blog.  I'm not banded very tightly.  I'm depressed.  
   I've gained weight. ( I was in a 14 edging towards a 12, but now I'm edging closer to a 16 instead. )

Jump back a month or so... to the beginning of June. After my long running sabbatical I tried to do it again.  I got back out there like a champ and ran 2 miles.  Then when I couldn't do it very well, for many reasons, I beat myself up for it.  I hated that I wasn't able to run like I had just a month before that.   Which of course is stupid thinking.  I had just started a new medication for manic-depressive disorder and it was throwing me all out of whack, I also hadn't been taking my asthma meds and that didn't help any either.  All the other times I'd run, I was on my asthma meds.  What did I think?  My asthma was just gonna disappear??  Well, I tried this I think... twice... and gave up.  I stopped caring at all.  No running, barely any walking, no exercise at all for a week.  Then I tried the elliptical once.  That wasn't too hard, but I did it at work, and it was hot and sweaty and inconvenient.  Excuses, excuses, excuses.

Ugh.

Now, here I am, I haven't run since then.  Over the last weekend, which was a long one, I took a 4 day weekend to take a little mini-vacation to Portland, I walked ALOT.  We toured Portland, went to the Saturday Market, and a Sand Castle building thinger.  We also took a walking tour of Portland's haunted places.  All fun, but tiring.  My legs were KILLING me.  I was happy I did it though.  I didn't cry about the pain, I just kept walking. Sunday on the way home we even stopped at the beach... and uh.. walked.  lol

Yesterday, after having some time to rest, I went for a run.  Yay!!  Only about a mile, and I felt like I was dying the whole way.  I stopped every now and then to walk, but I ran most of it.  I did a good job.  I've decided that instead of beating myself up for not being able to run 3 miles, I should give myself permission to fail a little bit.  

Its better to try and fail then not try at all, right?

Current weight:  ?

Official Weigh In Day

Wow, I've been busy. Work has been fairly busy, and so has home. So many things going on, I forget to post here.

So, I've been so busy I haven't been exercising enough. I'm still losing weight because my band is very tight right now, but that's not enough by itself anymore. I've lost almost 80 pounds (only one more pound to go for that goal) so I'm not doing bad, but I would like to have lost just a bit more by now. There have been set backs, like the surgeries, and the unfill, but it still feels like my fault. I was losing 2-3 pounds a week in the beginning, now I'm lucky if I lose one. I go down, then come back up and then go down again. Luckily it's a downward trend either way. I just wish it would go faster. It would help if I didn't eat so much junk.

So on the exercise front I've been getting in some exercise every week. At least one 45 minute session on the elliptical for the last couple weeks. 1-2 40 minute walks in addition to that. I started week 4 of the Couch to 5k yesterday. That was so frickin' hard. I couldn't believe it. Tomorrow I will do it again. I suspect that week 4 will take me 2 weeks or more to get down completely. Had I not been slacking for the last couple weeks it would have been easier, I'm sure.

Hopefully I'll see you guys again tomorrow when I post my 80 pound loss. lol


Current weight:184 lbs

Back to where I was!

Number of pounds down:

Finally! I'm back to where I was before I had to have the band loosened. One-Hundred-Ninety-Three! Yay!! I'm gonna run tomorrow, the second day of week two (C25k). Been lazy, haven't wanted to go run in the rain. I have been exercising some at home though. I did 180 jumping jacks, day before yesterday. That was full awesome.

Next week will be no working out, except mild walking, because of the boobs. Wish me luck that I don't gain 10 pounds!! lol


Current weight: 193lbs.

Back to Onederland!

Weigh in this morning puts me under 200 lbs again! Yay! I'm back in One-derland! So awesome.
Current weight: 199 lbs.

Hangin' Steady

I'm at 204. Only a few pounds away from One-derland! But I'm not allowed to exercise, so it feels so far away. I'm only allowed to walk, slowly, for 6 weeks. I'm done with 3 of those, so it's only a little longer. It just feels like it's draaaaaaaaaagging by. I finally have all my drains out. Not sure if I mentioned that already.

I'm looking skinnier. Several people have commented on that in the last week. I'm back in my size 18 jeans. They're a little tight, but not in a gross way. My tops are 14-18, or L-1XL, depending on the style. My neck is looking longer, and that's just awesome. I have on some super big hoop earrings right now, that I couldn't wear before because there wasn't enough space.

I'm not as scared about getting my picture taken, though, now the the fat is coming out, I have to worry about wrinkles more. heh.

So, overall life is ok. I'm still weighing myself daily when possible. I'm also out of old clothes, so once these get too big, I'll have to buy more. I'm ok for now though, since I'm not losing much right now.

Oh, also, on the food front. I'm still having trouble eating. Which is probably why I'm still losing even though I can't exercise. I'm still going to wait till I can exercise though, to tell the docs.


Current weight: 204 lbs

Feeling Crappy

Found out yesterday that my tubes will be taken out today. Big Plus! Awesome.

On the weight loss front, I'm doing alright considering I'm not working out at all. I'm down to 206, which will either level out or increase tomorrow, because they're putting saline in my boobs to increase them in size, so even if I lose a little weight, it'll balance out the boobs. If not, then according to the scale I will have gained. lol It's ok though, I know the real reason.

Trying really hard to get my liquid in for the last few days, because whenever I eat it's 1-2 hours before I can drink anything without feeling like I'm gonna puke. And this isn't even to the "stuffed" point of eating. It's just to the full point. I think there's a chance I may need some unfill, but it could also be because I ate too much at one point last week and it caused me to puke, which leads to swelling which leads to more puking... bad cycle. I'm trying to go easy on it now, and not even eat to full, and I'm trying to stick with soft foods. For the last two days the main portion of my diet has been cottage cheese. I figure calcium and protein. Good combo.

Well, feeling crappy or not, another pound down and closer to 199, so I'm happy I suppose. :)

Oh, one more thing... I was feeling kinda crappy about my progress because of the surgery I thought I wasn't going to lose any weight this month. Well, I was just looking at my weight on the 8th, compared to today... in 3 weeks I've lost 10 pounds. That's awesome. So really, I can't complain.

Current weight: 206 lbs.

Roller Coaster Ride

Total Pounds Down:

I'm back down again. Just over 5 lbs. lost. I've been avoiding the scales for fear that I would have gained weight but felt I needed to do it this morning and get it over with. I just took a look at my last post and realized that I hadn't updated that the 217 I had been at had only been temporary. I was back down to 212 a few days ago. The 207 is 5 pounds down from even that. So what I thought was going to be a horrible month for weight-loss turned out to be ok. Yay!

I'm still healing from my surgery, and still have tubes in my sides, so typing for extended periods of time is still not cool. This post is short, sorry.

I go in on the 29th to add fluid to my new fake boobs. So, I'll gain weight there, but not real weight. lol Fluid, not fat.

Oh, and I didn't go back to work Thursday. I'll be there Monday though.

Current weight: 207 lbs.
Current BMI: 35'ish

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2-0-freakin'-9

Yeah, you read that right. 209lbs. I lost over 5 lbs this morning. I guess my camping trip took a few days to catch up to me. I was expecting this loss when I got home from camping, but as you know, I actually gained a little weight. Here's photographic evidence, just in case it jumps

back up again tomorrow (lol):


I haven't run this week. I'm working on the things I need for my surgery next week, oh - did I mention that it got moved up to NEXT MONDAY? I'm not ready... omg. What was I saying? Oh yeah, getting ready for my surgery next week. I had labs yesterday (meaning they took blood from my arm) and I have my Pre-Op appointment today. And on Wednesday when I was supposed to run, I didn't have my truck with me (the BF had it) so I couldn't go meet my running buddy, Brandy, at the park. Which for me meant, hey, I can wait on that till tomorrow. Well, tomorrow got busy and it never happened. Grr.

I'm going to try to run this weekend, but we'll see. I wanted to get week 2 of the couch to 5k this week, so that I'd be further ahead after my surgery. I won't be able to run for awhile because ... no bouncy bouncy. I will jump back on the elliptical though, asap.

So life was a little sucky yesterday, I was feeling down and very stressed out, from the surgery coming up, from the labs I had to do yesterday (needles - ICK/OUCH).

Tic-Toc

Counting down to 199. I woke up this morning and weighed in at 217! Yay! Steadily dropping almost a pound a day. I'm guessing tomorrow will be only about .6 lbs based on the pattern of the scale for the last few days. Which means I'll be on 217 for two days. It could surprise me, but I really don't think so.

I've been trying to get in more liquids, unfortunately it's mostly sugar free kool-aid, as I'm a little tired of water right now. The point is, though, that I'm getting more liquid!

I've been cheating a little and eating chips, but not alot. Had about 1/4 cup of hamburger hash for dinner last night. That was as much as I could handle. Hamburger is hard to chew fully, it's like freakin' gum, it just goes on and on. The hamburger was mixed with ground pork for the meat, but I think the hamburger was truly the problem.

Exercise wise I didn't really get any yesterday, I had stuff to do, finishing up school shopping. Today I've done my short-version walk, it's about 25 minutes (maybe 30?) and bad girl that I am, I had a 16 oz chai with skim milk. Probably falls about the 300-400 calorie mark. It's that time of the month, and I wasn't feeling well this morning. It was my way of soothing myself, nice warm tasty liquid. I also had a few bites of a rice krispie treat.

Just now, for lunch, I had a few bites of chicken thigh with BBQ sauce, and two small bites of potato. It was too much. Or maybe I didn't chew well enough. I was pretty hungry. When my tummy feels better I'm going to try to eat more of the chicken, because I need the protein, but I'm done with the taters.

Because it's TTOTM I probably won't be doing alot of exercise unless it's after work. I hate dealing with the pad issue, and taking a shower, and changing in the public'ish locker room. So maybe I'll switch to after work for this week, and if I still walk at lunch, the better for it. I'll get double exercise! heh.

I saw a leaf drop today while I was on my walk. Fall is definitely on it's way. I'm excited for the cooler temps, it will make running nicer and not so sweaty. I don't look forward to the rain that comes with it though. lol

In other weight/fitness related stuff: I started my xmas list for this year, and it's going to be chock full of fitness/outdoorsy stuff. I'm even thinking of getting a membership to REI.

Here are a few things that are on my Xmas list:

• Novara Mia Pink Gel Bike Gloves
• New Balance Red/Gray Running Shoes
• Injinji Running Toe Socks

So if any of you want to do a secret santa, lemme know! lol I don't know how you'd do that online, but who knows. We can figure it out!



Current weight: 217 lbs.

Such Progress

Two pounds down this weekend. That's a good weekend if you ask me! Gotta stay on track and keep loosing about a pound a day so I can get under 200 in 18 days. That would be quite a feat considering that there are usually at least one or two days a week that I lose nothing. So I'll have to work my ass off to actually get that goal. But... 199 is worth it, right?

I just got back from shopping and dropping the BF off at work. Later today I need to take my daughter to the store to get some new shoes for school. I'd also like to pick up a new frying pan. I'm going to check Ross to see if there are any at a reasonable price.

Anyway, that's all I have to say for now, I'm off to watch a little tv then go to the store.

Current weight: 218 lbs

Skipped over 225

It's my official Tuesday weigh in day, and boy what a surprise I got! I skipped the 225 mark entirely, and went directly to 224 by losing 2 pounds! How exciting is that??

I was telling my BF the other day that this is like a video game, a roleplaying video game, like Final Fantasy. I get positive reinforcement for doing the right thing, I "gain levels" or rather... Lose Levels! lol .. As long as I keep playing the game.

If you're curious about what I've been eating, here's a list of what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast: 1 S.F. rice pudding cup
Snack: water.... lol - it's true! I was getting hungry so I drank water.
Lunch: a few bites of General Tso's chicken
Snack: 2"x2" piece of cake, with filling on it, and some frosting
Snack: 2 tbsp. tropical crab salad, minus some of the pineapple.
Dinner: 3/4 in. slice of giant hoagie sandwich, and 1 chip


Mind you, I don't normally eat cake. That was my leftover piece from the other day when we were watching movies. There's still some of that same piece in the fridge. And I overestimated about how much I ate of it. The rest though, is pretty accurate. Especially the breakfast. That sugar free pudding is what I have almost every morning, because my band is especially tight in the morning.

I discovered recently some foods that I cannot eat:

• Carrots. Cooked or otherwise, doesn't matter. They stick.
• Cooked Celery. Not sure about raw, haven't tried much.
• Overcooked pork chops.

On the exercise front, I did another day of the Couch to 5k program yesterday, well, actually the same day. heh. I redid Day 1 again. I'm still unable to complete all the run segments. I did 6 out of 9 yesterday. My legs were killing me. They hurt for like 2 hours afterward. Oddly, I'm not really sore today. o_O Weird.



Current weight: 224lbs.

Weight Update

No catchy title today, just a weight update. I had my run yesterday, and I was feelin' pretty good. I hung out the rest of my work day with my cube mate, that was pretty fun. Then... I went to the dentist. Lets just say, the rest of my day was pretty well crap. Going to the dentist to deal with my tooth again, same tooth that I've been in for twice before this, was a pain in my arse. Having your mouth forced open for over an hour is hard on the jaw muscles. I wonder if I could get a muscle relaxant next time? Maybe that would help. *shrugs*

Something he was using in my mouth made me cough a few times while he was working on my mouth. And whatever he was doing, something made me nauseous so I had a hard time eating when I went home. I had a heaping tablespoon of peanut butter for dinner. I just couldn't stomach anything else, and my mouth was hurting anyway.

I'm getting behind on my water lately too. I'm trying to work on that. I'm drinking water right now, before I can have my breakfast. I've been eating breakfast first, then drinking an hour later, but I think that's shrinking my water drinking time.

On a good note, my weight is down again! Yay me! It's at 228lbs now, and just barely. If I lose even half a pound more I'll be at 227. I'm so freakin' excited about this. I love this thing. I just need like... 50 more pounds down and I can get my boobs done. That would be nice. I'm going to make the appointment with the plastic surgeon in September/October after I've lost like 40 of the total 75 I need to lose. So I can prove that I'm on my way, and hopefully he'll schedule my boob job for November/December. I would prefer December though.

Well, I'm off to finish my water now.

Cheerio!

Current weight: 228lbs.
Current BMI: 38.??

Happy Birthday!

What a great way to start the day, another 1 point something pounds down. I now officially weight 229 lbs. As today is my weigh in day, this will remain on my list over there on the right even after today has passed.

Today is my 35th birthday (and President Obama's birthday too! He's 48 today) and I'm having cake. If you want to see what kind of cake, go here. This is not my regular blog, so I'm not going to talk about my regular stuff.

Yesterday for breakfast I had a sugar-free cinnamon roll pudding. For lunch I had a slim-fast. For snacks during work I had some pork rinds. And for snack after work I had a Good Humor Almond ice cream bar. Well, to be honest I only ate 2/3'rds of it because it made me a little sick. My son ate the rest. For dinner I had a small bowl of homemade soup, minus most of the broth. It was pretty good but the meat I had in it was a little dry and got stuck on the first bite. After that, I basically shredded it, and at it little bits at a time.

So, I think that's all for now. I may come back later if I have more to post.

It's a good day bra'! (from that carl's jr. commercial - lol)

Current weight: 229lbs

Monday Madness!

Over the weekend I went to karaoke, and got stone drunk. It was great. I've been eating very little for the last week. Last night for dinner I had a single hot dog, no bun, and about 1/4 cup of mac-n-cheese. I had to stop twice to let my food go down before I ate some more. I finished the hot dog, but left some mac on my plate. For breakfast yesterday I had pudding, and for lunch I had 5 wholewheat ritz crackers with cajun crab spread on them. That's a fair sampling of how I've been eating.

For my exercise yesterday I cleaned out our fridge. Totally detailed it, removed the shelves and everything. 1 and a half hours of hard labor. lol

I'm wondering if I should be doing protein shakes again? At least every few days maybe. I had pudding for breakfast this morning too. I need to invest in some flavorless protein powder to add to my puddings. I have pork rinds for a snack, and a slim fast for lunch. I would have had that for breakfast, but it's frozen, so I have to wait.

I don't know what we're doing for dinner yet.

I weighed myself on the Wii this morning and had lost another 2 pounds, after loosing almost a pound the other day, that's about 3 pounds for the week. Good deal! Loving it. Hee hee. It might have been more were it not for the alcohol on Saturday, but whatever, I had fun.

It's not my official weigh day yet. Tomorrow. So maybe I'll lose some more by then.


Current weight: 230lbs.

Weight Update

Had a good weekend. Played Forgotten Realms on Friday. Ate chips. On Saturday we bought some comics, and a small, grape, Arctic Freeze from DQ. On Sunday, I had two chocolate peanut butter no-bake cookies. I was having some issues keeping away from carbs as you can see. I don't know what my problem was. It was snack snack snack all weekend. But this morning, I weighed myself and I was down to 234! I have a feeling the weekend is going to come back and bite me in the butt. Probably Tuesday or Wednesday no doubt. Though, even if it does, I know I'll be back to 234 by Friday, because that's how it's been going lately.


To talk about the nutritional stuff now, we had baked salmon for dinner last night, with roasted vegis (green beans, wax beans, carrots, mushrooms and onion), and flavored rice (from a box). It was soooo good. The salmon was a bit overcooked and thereby dry, because I'd purchased it frozen. And I was having trouble getting it to the right temp. It was still quite tasty though.

Overall I didn't eat all that much, even with the naughty foods I have listed above. I calculated the calorie cost for what I ate yesterday and it was about 1000 cals. I don't know what it was for Saturday, but seeing as I didn't eat all that much, it was probably no more than 1500. So although all those things sound really bad by themselves, I'm pretty good at making up for it by eating less in other areas. Also, I'm not drinking caloried beverages either, which makes my calories far less than what they used to be.

One more thing... in NSV (non-scale victories), yesterday I had to do laundry, and I wanted to wash all my normal summer clothes. It was so hot though, that I didn't want to wear pants. So I looked in my closet and found a skirt that I had grown out of, and tried it on. It fit!! :D How exciting is that? It was a little tiny bit tight, but comfortable enough to sit down in. I wore it the rest of the day, and I have to say... I looked great in it. lol



Current weight: 234lbs.

Weight Update

Wowee Zowee. I was afraid I was stuck at 238 and would never lose any more weight. (That's how it feels, you know, like a diet, a diet that will fail just like every other diet.) I did though! I lost another 1.2 pounds! This puts me at 237! In the bottom of the 237's even. If I lost another 1/2 pound I would be 236!! OMG. This is so awesome. Even without the fill I'm still doing ok! I would rather be losing 3-4 pounds per week, but losing any is still awesome.

So last night, I almost had a PB experience. The family was having one of those On-cor Entrees, the barbeque fake pork patties that we all love, but I didn't want to have those calories, so I got 3/4 of a chicken breast instead and coated it with the sauce from the patties. It was well tasty, let me tell you. So I put that, a little over a scoop of broccoli, and 5 onion rings on my plate. Well, to be honest, I ate 3 of those onion rings right off the pan, but the total eaten was 5.

So I ate all the onion rings, most of the broccoli, and all but a bite of the chicken. When I got to the last bite of broccoli and chicken, that I ate, I was almost forcing it down. It was just so tasty, and it didn't seem like I'd eaten that much. I've eaten whole chicken boobs before, and this was only 3/4. I'm thinking it was because I ate those onion rings first though. Anyway, I was stuffed to the gills. It hurt after a minute or two, then my throat started clogging up with slime, it felt kinda like the snot that builds up in the back of my throat when my sinuses get all crazy.

Nothing came up though. I don't think I was even nauseous. I had a slight pressure, right below the point that I would have felt sick, but it never quite made it that far. Then a few minutes later I burped really nicely and it settled better. Still hurt, but not so much, and the slime mostly went away.

Current weight: 237lbs.

Can't..resist.....must.have...treats...

Weigh in this morning sucked. I'm up .7 lbs. Luckily still holding steady in the 239, but if I keep eating like I did yesterday, I'm gonna have problems.

I know I haven't gotten my first fill yet, but any gain feels like failure. Especially after eating everything I could get my hands on yesterday. I know, it's NOTHING like how I ate before. All those bites that I took would have been whole items instead of just bites. I would have eaten the whole salad, and gotten myself a whole dessert. Actually, I probably wouldn't have gotten a salad. I would have gotten an appetizer, and a big burger or steak, and eaten it all. I have nothing to be ashamed of for eating what I ate yesterday. It was bad, but still, just a drop in the bucket comparatively.

I did get in my exercise yesterday. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical at the gym. I'm walking today. Tomorrow I'll get back on the elliptical and do 20 minutes instead. The 15 was just because I was chicken. I wasn't sure I could do it, so I set it low. I was fine, and probably could have gone another 5-10 minutes. My legs would have been rubber, but I could have done it. Hopefully by Thursday I'll be over my monthly issues too, which makes the whole shower/change thing easier too.

So today I'm trying to switch up my eating a little. I didn't eat on my first break like I usually do. I'm drinking water instead, trying to get down about 20+ ounces before I eat. I snacked on 3 radishes while I was drinking water to keep the hunger down a bit. I figure they have almost no calories, so it doesn't hurt me to eat them and drink at the same time. I just looked it up, and a whole cup of radish slices is only 19-23 calories, depending on what site you look at. Nothing. lol

I'm trying to push back when I eat, so that I'm not so hungry after work. That's when I get the most trouble. I get home, start snacking, and it turns into what you saw yesterday. I need to be full when I get home so I don't feel the need to graze. I sure can't wait for my fill. I would love to feel as full as I did the weekend after surgery. Yeesh.

Here is the list of what I'm eating today:

For breakfast I'm having a can of tuna (80 cals) with 1/2 a tomato (15 cals) chopped in, and about 1 1/2 tablespoons of miracle whip (55 cals). For lunch I brought a can of cream of celery soup. I know, no protein, but an easy way to fill my belly with low calories. It's only 90 calories per serving, so even if I eat the whole can I'll only get about 225 calories.

Total for breakfast and lunch: 375 cals.


For dinner I have planned to make baked lemon chicken with mushroom sauce. I'm going to try my hand at wild rice on the side, and probably a salad. I'm not very good at making rice though, so wish me luck.

So if I eat a chicken breast with some rice, the lemon chicken is about 392 calories, and the rice is about 82 calories for a half cup.

Total for dinner: 474 cals. (if I eat the whole chicken breast)

Total for the day: 849 cals.

Assuming that I don't snack. Wish me luck.


Current weight: 239 lbs.

Official Weigh In Day

Weighed in this morning. 2 weeks from the day after surgery, my official weigh in day, till I make it something different. Should I make it Monday? So it's exactly from when I got banded? Or leave it Tuesday, so it's from the first time I weighed myself after banding? It should probably be Sunday, the day before banding, but I didn't weigh myself that day, and they didn't weigh me the day of surgery.

Conundrum.

So Tuesday it is. For now. And back to my weight... I was down .2 of the pounds that I was up yesterday, so I'm almost back to 238. I've heard from other people that most go up a bit and then drop dramatically. I hope that's me! lol. The .2 brought me to exactly 239 lbs. Had I lost just .1 more pounds I would have been back at 238. That would have been good. I like that number. I would like 237 even better!

I was really good eating wise yesterday. I had 1/2 chicken breast for breakfast, with a couple bites of applesauce, and the same for lunch. For dinner I had about 1 1/2 cups of Turkey Pumpkin Chili, and a teaspoon of light sour cream to top part of it. Other than that it's been water, or decaf tea with Splenda, which I don't drink after meals. Oh, and my vitamins. Yum yum.

I need new goals for this week, which I should have set Monday, but I couldn't think of what I wanted them to be. I have now though, so here they are:

1. French, 20 mins per day.


2. Work out in the gym at least 2 times this week.


3. Walk 30 minutes each day I'm not in the gym.


4. Get to 235 lbs. by Sunday.

I think these are do-able. So wish me luck!

Current weight: 239 lbs.

That Funny Feeling

My weight is up by .4 lbs, which puts me back in the 239 pounds area, as of this morning. I was sad to break my losing streak, but not entirely surprised. Weekends are not good for me. I have a bit of a co-dependent thing with my boyfriend, and when he gets snacky, guess who also gets snacky? On top of that, I made mac-n-cheese at the request of my daughter, and ate some. I knew I shouldn't but I just couldn't help it!

I know it's only .4 pounds, but I'm supposed to be losing weight, not gaining it back!

The tree I saw on my walk today.

Needless to say, I was disappointed this morning. I'm sure it'll be back down soon though. I'm on the tail end of my "monthly issues" and I'm sure I'll drop a bit once I'm all done there. I also walked 40 minutes yesterday, and 40 minutes today. I plan to do it again the rest of this week too.

I remembered to bring my food for breakfast and lunch today, teriyaki chicken and apple sauce. (for both.. the chicken was leftovers)

When I was eating lunch today, I got one of those reminder jolts that I have something stopping me from eating. I got through with my chicken - protein first! - and started my applesauce. I got about 3 bites when I got this ... heavy feeling in my gut. I took one more bite and stopped. I only took that last bite because it was already half in my mouth when I felt the heaviness. It's a really good thing that I picked the smaller piece of chicken for my lunch, or I probably would have PB'd. lol
Which I haven't yet done, btw.



Current weight: 239 lbs.

Little Update

Good afternoon!!

Just a little update. Things are going well. Healing well. Went to see my surgeon Friday, and was cleared for regular foods, which I was kinda already doing anyway. lol

So I made my 239 goal yesterday, and as of this morning I'm 238 pounds!! Woohoo! After researching on my Wii Fit, looking back at my history since we had it, I actually got down to 238 last year in May not long after we got the Wii Fit, because we were playing it obsessively. So I am now officially as low as I was a year ago, only this time, instead of going back up after wards, this time I will continue going down. Yay!! This is SO exciting! OMG.

2 more pounds and I will be 20lbs. down from the day after surgery. So that's my next mini-goal... 236 lbs.


Current weight: 238lbs.