Angi and the LapBand

2 Years! - Bandiversary Post

2011-07-28T16:06:00.000-07:00

I apparently missed my 2 year bandiversary. I'm feeling great, still losing weight. I'm not at goal yet, but I'm working on it. Could I try harder? Yes. Does it matter at this point? Not really. lol I'll get there when I get there. As long as I keep trying, I'll be ok. Many of my bad habits are finally coming under control after two years of working with this thing, and I'm satisfied that even if it was gone, I'd struggle a bit, but ultimately be able to maintain where I'm at in the very least.

I may add more to this post tomorrow, I just realized that I hadn't said anything about the bandiversary yet, but don't have time to do any full on huge posts.

To all those out there that are just starting out, I know it seems hard/crazy. Have hope. The journey is sometimes difficult, but it's well worth it in the end! <3

Current weight: 181 lbs

Broke the trend

2011-07-22T10:09:00.000-07:00

I finally broke the 182 that I've been fighting for a couple months now!!

So for the last few months, I've been exercising moderately, and eating well (good portions) for the most part. I was bouncing back and forth between 182 and 186, with 182.0, being my lowest. I'd always think... just one more day and I'll be below 182 yay!! Then the next day would dawn and I'd jump up on the scale and bam... same or higher.

I thought I was done. This was my lowest weight I was going to get to unless I started kicking my own butt and working out hardcore. This was a battle I was going to have to fight.

So, for the last few days I've been eating not so much, because I haven't been hungry much. I've had mostly good for me stuff, but I haven't been trying to clear my plate. I've also been walking home from work because my BF has had my vehicle. Today I woke up, and stepped on the scale, and what'dya know?! 180.8!! That puts me at 83 pounds lost since my highest weight. That is AWESOME.

I not only broke the 182, but the 181 too! Maybe if I can be good another day or two I can get past the 180's altogether and into the 170's. Wouldn't that be nice?!

Wish me luck folks!!

Current weight: 180.8 lbs

Here I am again!

2011-05-05T10:44:00.000-07:00

Hi there! I know I haven't been around, but what can you do? Life happens.

So after the last time I was here I lost a few pounds, got down to 185, then gained a couple back. I've been hovering at 186/187 for a couple weeks now, but today I hopped on the scale and saw 184!!

This is the lowest I've been since last year right before my band started giving me all that sh*t.... AND this time I wasn't not eating. I've been eating regular normal meals, and even snacking a bit. I have added back in more exercise though, and my eating that I call "regular normal meals" is small compared to most. I eat about 1/3 of what my family eats. heh. They make me full though. I've been trying to make more food at home and eating out less. I've had a few PBs but they've been rare, and when they do happen they are the easy, stuff just comes right back kind that happen when I eat too fast or don't chew right.

Anyway, so there you have it. Exercise plus a normal working band and small frequent meals. Yay!!

Current weight: 184

Fill it up to get it down...

2011-03-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

Well, well, well.... it's all about the minor adjustments, isn't it?

So the last time I talked to you I had just had a little unfill to get me to a more comfortable place. Well, I think it's just about perfect. I had been disappointed because I hadn't been sure that this little tiny bit would make that much of a difference, but guess what? It has.

My fill is currently about 5.2cc's or so. That .2 doesn't sound like much, but it's right on track for me. I'm eating less, but not so tight that I'm puking every day. Not to say that I haven't lost a lunch or two, but it was out of stupidity, not the band. I seem to have the most trouble when I'm eating with someone and am talking, I forget to chew. heh... which sends me to the bathroom to do a PB, then I can go back to eating, and pay more attention after that.

Prior to the fill, I was eating until I felt full and then just a little more, but then a half hour later, I was in pain because all that food was backed up and would pull my esophagus to the side if I leaned one way or another. This doesn't happen now because I get full faster, and stop eating sooner and I puke if I eat that "just a little more", so I get that instant feedback that I wasn't getting before this last fill.

Needless to say, I'm back into the 180's.. I would have posted on this sooner, but I didn't want to jinx it!! lol

I want to also say, how much difference 10 pounds makes in wearing clothes. A few weeks ago I was bordering around 194-200 and all my clothes were tight. Now, at 187, my clothes are all baggy and pants I've been avoiding because of the pudge now fit me again.

*Crossing my fingers* This is going well, here's to hoping it continues!!

Important note in regards to the fill...
For the last year, all my fills have been done with a certain size of needle/syringe that made it difficult to get a smaller number because it was harder to read, so we were moving up and down at a .5 or higher range. This last one was so small because the doc changed to a different one and was better able to read the amount he was pulling out. I would like to tell you all out there if you are having trouble with getting just the right fill and your doctor tells you that its too hard to tell if he's getting the right amount... Ask for another size needle/syringe!!! They do make them smaller for better accuracy! I did not know this. I could have saved myself tons of trouble last year had I known this to be the case!!

Current weight: 187lbs

Just keeping track

2011-03-15T11:21:00.000-07:00

Diary of food I've eaten today... just to keep track:

1 Medium SF Annihilator with two extra shots of SF coconut (260 Cal)

This 260 Calories is approximate *see below.

1 Bag of Lays Baked BBQ chips (140 cal)
1 bottle of SOBE Raspberry Lemonade (13 cal)

1 tablespoon of chicken salad (30 cal)
About 4 oz of Grilled/breaded Tilapia(240 cal)
1 small piece of artichoke (15 cal)
1 slice of a large mushroom (1 cal)
1/2 tbsp of tartar sauce for the fish (about 60 cal)

I'll probably have two boiled eggs for lunch, but I haven't decided yet.

*Note on the coffee approximation... I don't order them as "Skinny" because it doesn't taste right and I'd rather have the full 2% milk, so that raises the calories. Unfortunately, there are no listings on the calorie amounts for this. So I'm guessing... the Skinny is 90 cals, and 12 oz of 2% milk is 170 calories. These together is what I'm using, though I think it would probably be less. If anybody knows the exact number, would you supply it please? Thank you!!

Current weight: 191 lbs.

Ahhh... :)

2011-03-10T13:00:00.000-08:00

Wow... ok, so it's been a LONG couple of days. I haven't really eaten since lunch on Tuesday when I ate a third of my salmon burger and some chips. I had that fill after lunch Tuesday and I've been 99% liquids since then. I did slip and eat a bite of chili yesterday which I think caused some problems for me, but mostly liquids.

So after all the complications last year with my band liquid in then out then in again then out completely, etc...I decided that I should be all liquids after my .5cc fill to wait out the swelling. I was good the rest of Tuesday, then yesterday morning, good then too. Yesterday afternoon I was feeling better so figured it might be ok to eat a couple of soft things. I had a slice of American Processed Cheese. A couple of chocolate peanut butter eggs (which I ate because my calories at 4 yesterday afternoon were like 200 or so for the whole day and I was feeling faint), and a bite of chili with a cracker. The rest was water or other clear liquid.

I was feeling a little uncomfortable by last evening, but was able to lie down and go to sleep without much issue, then at 2 AM, approximately, I had this sudden urge to puke. I bolted out of bed to the bathroom and ... nothing. So I put my finger down my throat to get whatever it was that was causing the problem - out. I think it was the skin of the kidney beans that were in the chili. That's the only thing I'd eaten that was a reddish color.

After that I couldn't lie back down again. My pouch was sore, and anything but bolt upright made it hurt, so I slept on the couch for the remainder of the night. This morning I was able to drink water and clear tea, but my Dutch Bros sugar free coffee... no dice. I tried some chocolate milk later on, still troubled.

At lunch I went in to have some removed. We ended up removing .4cc's out of the .5cc's that he'd added yesterday. I feel better now, but disappointed.

Well, that's all for now. I must get back to work. Anybody else out there with these issues? I'd like some feedback. Thanks!! :)

Current weight: 193lbs

New Fill

2011-03-09T09:51:00.000-08:00

Hi All!!

Quick update, I went in for a .5cc fill yesterday. I've been stuck in the 194-200 range for the last several months, even with my running. Seems I needed a little help. I feel tight, but I'm having no issues with liquids. I plan to stay on liquids for the remainder of the day and move to mushies tomorrow. With all the trouble I've had in the last year with fills I'm doing my best not to mess this up. If I have to take any out again, I'll quit there. My plan is for this fill to be my last ever. Cross your fingers for me, will ya?

Current weight: 195.4lbs

2.8 Miles!

2011-02-07T11:10:00.000-08:00

No weight update today because I've been busy and haven't been able to weigh in recently. Last week was the last time I did and I was back up to an even 200. ick.

But... I'm doing good in my running and I've even taken up Yoga. I've had yoga for the last three weeks. Usually only once per week, but I got in a double the week before last. In my running, I'm pretty consistently doing 3 days a week, though that's a bit sporadic too. I'm happy though, because last Thursday I did 2.8 miles!! Go me!! So I'm almost back to my 5k level. I plan to go out tomorrow again, unless the sun peeks out after I'm off work tonight - in which case I'll go tonight, and do a full 5k (3.1 miles). Maybe more if I feel ok. Next week I'll bump to 4 miles, and then just add a new mile every week. I think I can do that.

*crossing my fingers*

Anyway, that's all I have for now. Hope everybody's having a great time! :)

Current weight: 200?

Liquids...

2011-01-25T13:51:00.000-08:00

Ok, so something I didn't say anything about because it freaked me out, and I was ashamed for awhile because I thought it might be true. I was in the gym, and had just gotten done with my workout. I was tired, and clumsy and when I went to weigh myself I knocked the display for the scale off the wall.

When I got on the scale, after putting it back up, it read a huge 30 pound GAIN. It said 232 lbs. So I got off and back on again after zeroing it out it dropped to 230, then again and it dropped to 229, then again, but no change. I thought, how the heck is this possible??! I just weighed myself the week before and I was 199. You can't gain 30 freaking pounds in a week! Can you??

So I avoided the scale for awhile, scared that it might have been accurate. I dedicated myself to eating better and exercising more. I even decided to go on liquids for a few days to let my stomach shrink back. I had been eating too much and I was sure my mini-tummy was stretched.

After the two days of liquids, and running, I got up the courage again. and found that I was back to just about 200. Phew.

Current weight: 200.8lbs

No shell

2011-01-25T12:39:00.000-08:00

Fellow bandsters, and other interested parties,

I have started several blogs, and never get the chance to finish them. So I'm sorry for the lack of updates. This blog entry is actually from yesterday, as I came to a revelation while eating lunch.

I had just ordered my food, and a woman looked at my tray really strangely, and I realized that maybe not everybody knows that Taco Bell is the ultimate "have it your way" establishment. In fact, it's my very favorite place to eat, before and after WLS. After, mainly because you can order ANYTHING on the menu without the shell. Forget that lame o taco salad that's huge and surrounded by the greasy shell, get a 7 layer burrito with added chicken (no shell) or a burrito supreme, again, minus the shell. They'll put it in a neat little tray for you (see pic) and voila! Salad.

So the next time your tight, and don't want to stuff yourself with carbs, think outside the bun! lol

PS - I got 2.25 miles in today running!!

Current Weight: 197.4 lbs.

New Year - New Goal

2011-01-18T08:12:00.000-08:00

I've gained weight. I need a fill, but I'm afraid to get one. I need to get my eating habits under control before I can really expect the band to help. I eat fine for days, or hours or weeks, then boom I get crazy and eat an entire chimichanga in one sitting! (it was like, 1 1/2 pounds, seriously.)

My goal for this year, well, weight/fitness wise is to run a half marathon on May 1st. I think that if I can get to that goal I will lose the 15 or so pounds that I've gained back, and maybe lose more.

A couple weeks ago I started running again. I've been 4 times? No, more than that... two treadmill days, and 3-4 outside days. So like 5-6 times. I injured myself last Thursday on the treadmill. My gait was way off because the treadmill makes me unbalanced, so I irritated the muscle on my right flank. So much so that my toes were numb for 3 days and I couldn't sit flat on my butt - even on a soft couch! I had to take a day off from work because sitting in my chair at work was too much. lol I'm better now though, thanks.

So, I think my major problem was that I keep expecting to be able to run 3 miles straight like I was able to last year at this time. I just want to jump in and go. It's not working though. Partly because I haven't been taking my Advair, partly because it's freaking cold outside and that kills my lungs, and partly because I'm just not in that kind of shape.

Today I thought about it and realized that what I really need to do is start the C25K over again. Duh. Bring myself slowly back up to the right level. So I'm going to do that today. Hopefully the skies are mostly clear this afternoon, but if not, I'll put on a visor and get a little rained on I guess. (blech) I will do it though.

Current weight: 199??

Finally...

2010-09-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

Well, I got a new fill last week. I'm up to 6cc's total at this point. I'm really tight, but I'm also at TTOTM. I got my fill the first day of it (last Thursday), so I'm watching to see that it loosens up in a few days so I can eat a bit better. In either case I've lost about 7 pounds since the fill. I'm stoked. I had gotten back up to 197 lbs, not too bad, but still not good. Now I'm back to 190.

I'm hoping to be back to 185 in the next few days. I'm still riding my bike to work a few days a week. Including this morning.

I'm beginning to think my bike is unlucky though. I've been late to work almost every time I've taken my bike to work. I've forgotten my badge, I've not had access to the bike cages, I've left a few minutes late because of bad planning... etc. This morning I was almost late, my chain slipped off!! Luckily I was coming around the corner about a block from work and I still had about 7 minutes left. (Better planning today. heh) I walked/ran to lock up my bike and made it in on time 'ish.

Anyway, I'm off to play Facebook games. Have a great day everybody!! :)

Current weight: 190lbs.

Weight Update

2010-09-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

Back to 195 thanks to my bike! Yay! I've been doing ok on my eating. Trying to pay attention to the sweets. I was down to 194 the other day, but it came back up the very next day. I must add that I haven't been weighing in at the same time every day, because I've been too busy to do so.

Anyway, I don't have alot of exciting stuff to say, I just wanted to update ya'll. Have a great day!!

Current weight: 195 lbs

Statistic

2010-08-20T12:15:00.000-07:00

Still at 197. It's the candy. The ice cream. The junk. ick. I don't know what's wrong with me. I know it's all mental, but dang it's hard to get back to eating how I was when I was losing weight. At least the upswing has stopped now.

Food so far today:
Breakfast -
1 can diet coke
2 boiled eggs
1/3 of a small apple fritter donut (I gave the rest away so I wouldn't be tempted to nibble)
5 oz of vitamin water Zero

Lunch -
1/2 cup of punch
1 small plate of stuff from Hometown buffet (basically a spoon or two of a bunch of different stuff, probably equal to about 1 1/2 cups (maybe 2) or so if you stuffed it all in there)
1 piece of cheesecake
1/2 cup of sugar-free/fat-free froYo.

So lunch was about twice as much as I should have had, and the cheesecake was totally unnecessary.

I've only been on my bike once this week. Busy busy. No excuse though. I could be going to the gym at lunch and I'm not doing that either. wtf is wrong with me? I know I don't want to be fat anymore and I know that my clothes are too snug, and I really REALLY don't want to start upsizing my clothes again. Am I going to be a statistic and let my subconscious need to be fat overrule my desire to be the skinny me I know I really am? Am I just whining? I think yes, I am. lol

Oh, also, I got a call from Dr. Maccoll's nurse. They had my test results back for my 1 year check up. I'm doing great on everything, except my cholesterol is slightly above normal. It's 200 I think they said and should be 170-something I think. My good cholesterol was fine. She asked if I was exercising, and I said yes, which is the truth, but I don't think I'm exercising enough. She said that exercise will often help it. She said that I should see my GP about maybe taking something for it or other ways to help it.

Current weight: 197lbs

Lunch

2010-08-18T11:45:00.001-07:00

Chai tea = BAD
2 eggs = GOOD
Sm. Cup of Curry soup = YUMMY

Weird thing, one of the two eggs had a WHITE yolk! I've never seen that before. It was so weird, I took a picture and posted it to facebook.

Current weight:197

PIE =EVOL

2010-08-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

It's ttotm, so I don't know if my current 197 lbs is actually accurate, but that's where I am *cries* I've been riding my bike, but also for the last two days I've been eating pie. And not just any pie, but brilliant, horribly, fattening pie. I came up with the awesome idea to make a pie in three layers, graham crust, with brownie baked in, then a layer of ice cream, then a layer of chocolate mousse. The mousse was probably the least caloried of them, because it was made with sugar-free pudding. Anyway, over the last two days I have had two 1/8th slices of that along with a few spoonfuls of the leftover mousse. The rest of my eating has been ok. Pretty much all good food. Or at least minimal food.

Last night for dinner I had a slice of pizza, just one, well two, that were cut in half so I could have two flavors. For breakfast I had 2 1/2 eggs (I didn't eat the yoke of the third) and for lunch I had a 7-layer burrito ez on the rice, with half the tortilla thrown away. That's been a pretty common theme for the last few days.

I was snacking on some chips day before yesterday though. Man, I really gotta get out of these habits. I looks so bad to see all this in writing. lol

That's all I have for right now. Hope all is well with you guys! :)

Current weight:197lbs

Short note

2010-08-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

Rode my bike to work today, and several times over the last few days. Loving it so much!! :) Life is ok. Eating well. Not too much junk food. (Not none either.) Focusing on protein again so my hair doesn't thin again.

I'm getting back closer to where I was a couple months ago. Only about 10 more pounds to go.

Current weight:194 lbs.

It's late...

2010-08-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

..or early. Depends on how you look at it I guess. I haven't weighed myself today, been busy. Went bike riding with my daughter today, that was fun up till the end. Apparently the bolt that goes to my rack (that I just added) is too long. It's catching the chain when I try to go to certain gears. Going to Jerry's tomorrow to get a new, shorter, bolt.

Current weight: 195? (I'll tell you tomorrow... if I don't forget.)

Weight Update

2010-08-12T13:40:00.000-07:00

Not much to say. Still loving my bike, and my new fill. Struggling with eating appropriate snacks. I'm doing pretty well on not drinking while eating.

Current weight: 195lbs

Bike or iPhone 4?

2010-08-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

Well, my birthday was last week. My boyfriend was going to buy me an iPhone for my birthday, but asked me if that's what I actually wanted. I said I'd rather have a bike. So I got a bike! Yay! I've been without one for a few years since my last bike was stolen. This new bike was with the provision that the next time we get paid, we split the cost of a small shed to keep the bike in.

I've already taken several long and short bike rides. I just love having the wind in my face. I would like to start riding it to work, but I think I need to buy a light for it because it's starting to be dark in the morning when I'd have to leave.

Also, I weighed myself on my Wii and I'm back down to 196. I don't know how far off my Wii is from my Dr.'s office anymore, it used to be 1 pound. So if that's still the case, I'm down 3 pounds from my last visit (see previous blog, I was 199 at the Dr's.) and all I can say to that is... YAY!!

So that's all for now.

Current weight: 196lbs.

Ketchup

2010-08-04T10:05:00.000-07:00

Ok, some good stuff. Firstly, on Monday I did 4 miles on a stationary bike. I feel like I could have done more, so next time I will do more. I didn't adjust the seat right and it was hurting my ... butt. Now I know you can fix that though, so I don't have to ride like a chollo on a lowrider bike.

In other news... I got a new fill yesterday!!! *feints with excitement* He brought me up to 5cc's. I can actually feel it. My dinner last night was tiny, though I did have dessert, but it was a few hours later. I am a much happier camper.

I was going to go back to the bike today, but it's my birthday and I just didn't feel like doing that. Maybe I'll run tonight if it's not horribly hot.

I have some updated before/after pics that the doctor's office took of me. Talk about a difference. Wow. Even with my recent 15 lbs gain, I still look way better than before. Totally different.

Anyway, that's all for now. Just wanted to keep you guys updated.

- Angi

Current weight: 199lbs

Facing the music

2010-07-29T12:21:00.000-07:00

I did it. I took the plunge and weighed myself yesterday. I've been avoiding it because of my 4 or more months of unrestricted eating and bad exercise habits. It wasn't as bad as I thought!! I've only gained 10 pounds! I didn't think it would be too bad, I am still a 14/16 after all. My size 14 clothes still fit, but they are getting tight. I really need to get back on the exercise bandwagon. I think that would fix my issues all together. Also, I have my next fill coming up next week, the day before my birthday, so hopefully I'll kick myself in the ass and finish out my weight loss.

I was kind of afraid that I would end up doing this. Getting to a reasonable weight, and then stopping and getting comfortable. I need new incentive. It was easy exercising everyday when I got a pound a day or even a few pounds a week loss as feedback. Ever since my band was loosened, I've felt very anti-exercise, and completely unmotivated. I know it's just mental, but it's so hard to get past it. I still exercise in other ways, try to get myself off the couch alot, do more active things with my kids and all that. But I haven't really been doing a steady 1/2 hour or more per day that I know I should be.

I do walk at lunch most days. That's about 20-30 minutes, but it's more of a stroll than exercise. I need something more than that, really. I really need to get back to running every other day. Hrrumpf.

Current weight: 196 lbs.

Giving myself permission

2010-07-20T07:59:00.000-07:00

I haven't been running, watching what I eat, or writing on this blog. I'm not banded very tightly. I'm depressed.
I've gained weight. ( I was in a 14 edging towards a 12, but now I'm edging closer to a 16 instead. )

Jump back a month or so... to the beginning of June. After my long running sabbatical I tried to do it again. I got back out there like a champ and ran 2 miles. Then when I couldn't do it very well, for many reasons, I beat myself up for it. I hated that I wasn't able to run like I had just a month before that. Which of course is stupid thinking. I had just started a new medication for manic-depressive disorder and it was throwing me all out of whack, I also hadn't been taking my asthma meds and that didn't help any either. All the other times I'd run, I was on my asthma meds. What did I think? My asthma was just gonna disappear?? Well, I tried this I think... twice... and gave up. I stopped caring at all. No running, barely any walking, no exercise at all for a week. Then I tried the elliptical once. That wasn't too hard, but I did it at work, and it was hot and sweaty and inconvenient. Excuses, excuses, excuses.

Ugh.

Now, here I am, I haven't run since then. Over the last weekend, which was a long one, I took a 4 day weekend to take a little mini-vacation to Portland, I walked ALOT. We toured Portland, went to the Saturday Market, and a Sand Castle building thinger. We also took a walking tour of Portland's haunted places. All fun, but tiring. My legs were KILLING me. I was happy I did it though. I didn't cry about the pain, I just kept walking. Sunday on the way home we even stopped at the beach... and uh.. walked. lol

Yesterday, after having some time to rest, I went for a run. Yay!! Only about a mile, and I felt like I was dying the whole way. I stopped every now and then to walk, but I ran most of it. I did a good job. I've decided that instead of beating myself up for not being able to run 3 miles, I should give myself permission to fail a little bit.

Its better to try and fail then not try at all, right?

Current weight: ?

Almost Bandiversary.

2010-06-02T11:58:00.000-07:00

So the three months is up. I went in for more barium yesterday. Ick!! All is well in lap-band land. He put 3cc's back in. Don't think that's gonna do much, but it makes me feel better to know the net is back, even if it's a small one.

I've gained some weight. I don't know how much yet. Guess I should stop putting it off and weigh myself tomorrow morning. I'll let you know how that goes... maybe.

By the way, if anybody wants to add me on Facebook, lemme know via email. I'd put up a link, but I'm too lazy to do that right now. I have to revamp my pages anyway sooner or later, so I'll put it up then I guess.

Also, if you have an iPhone, iTouch, or iPad and use either We Rule or Words with friends, I need more neighbors/friends, so please... let me know!! My username on those is Gwydas. I wish there was a way to social network the Wii Fit, but I don't think there is at this point. If any of you knows anybody who works for Nintendo, tell them to get on the ball with the social networking stuff!

One more thing, the title of this post even... heh... my bandiversary is coming up. I think my total, if you include the weight I've gained back, was about 70 pounds. Better overall than what it would have been without the band *cough*gained 20 pounds*cough* but still disappointing. I was hoping for a hundred or so. Still, I'm skinnier now than I've been in over 10 years. So hooray!

Current weight: 280 lbs. ?

Running

2010-05-12T12:22:00.000-07:00

Ok, I know I've been gone for awhile, but it's only because the weight loss is stalled. Still no liquid in my band. Soon, though, hopefully.

Current weight: 188lbs

5k!

2010-05-01T08:02:00.000-07:00

Ran a 5k today! It was awesome!

Grr...

2010-03-17T14:20:00.001-07:00

I have no idea how much I weigh right now and frankly I don't care. I had to have all my fluid removed. All of it. They did one of those barium swollows... OMG SO GROSS and some of my bottom stomach was coming up into my top area. Not a full slip, but enough that Dr. Mcoll freaked out. He said I have to be off saline for THREE WHOLE MONTHS. I'm sure I'm gaining some weight, but luckily haven't gained any inches yet. Trying really hard to keep up the exercise and not give in to temptation much on the food/drink area. Staying away from high calorie drinks, except alcohol. I've had some of that lately. Not daily though, or even weekly. Ok, well maybe weekly. For the last 2 months or so. heh.

Still running. I finally did Day 1 Week 4 of the C25k without a fail the other day. I'm supposed to run again today, but I'll be at a party, dancing, so I'll save it for tomorrow.

Sorry about the lack of updates folks. It's hard to feel like talking about it when it's not going so well.

On the NSV side, I'm fitting into several Misses' Medium shirts, and now own a pair of size 12 pants, and my size 14's are getting too big! XD

Current weight: 18_ ?

Pain

2010-02-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

Ok, I give. I thought I could outsmart the band and let it heal without having to get an unfill... I was wrong. Ouch. My stomach has been hurting for 2 days. I've been puking like crazy, and have some awful acid reflux. To the point that I've been sleeping on the couch again so I can sit up while I sleep. Last night I was laying down and sleeping for a bit and some bile came up and tried to choke me. It made me cough, which woke me up. Then I went to the bathroom and puked. That was not pleasant. The food had already been sitting in my stomach for a few hours and was very acidic. I think it even gave me a sore throat.

I'm gonna see if I can get some taken out, but not all. I don't want to do the full unfill again, ever. I called to see about making an appointment this morning - I left a message. It'll be a few hours before they get back to me. Hopefully they'll have something open on lunch so I can get it done then.

Current weight: 185?

Weight Update

2010-02-23T12:16:00.000-08:00

I've been stuck in the 180's for the last month. I think I need more fiber, less candy. But on a plus side I'm down to a size 14 in all my stuff now. Boo-ya!

Current weight:185 lbs

Super Tight

2010-02-18T13:19:00.000-08:00

So for the last two weeks my band has been SUPER tight. It may have actually been longer than two weeks, but my sense of time is sometimes distorted. It's almost as tight as it was the time I had to have all the fluid out. I refuse to go back to the the doctor and have him take all my fluid out, so I've been trying to work with the tightness. I know I'm only so tight because a few weeks ago I was eating way too much junk and filling up my little stomach to the point of puking. When I puke it swells and tightens.

The part that really gets me and sets me back is that if there's any loosening at all, I start to get snack attacked, and stuff myself again. In the last couple of days I've been excruciatingly trying to hold back. I'm sticking to liquids as much as possible to give it a chance to heal. It's loosening up already. Unfortunately, as soon I noticed that today, I went after some chips! lol I'm a nut. Luckily I was able to put them out of site about half-way through the bag. So, at least I didn't finish it.

I've decided that I'm going to try to post helpful hints here as well. I've talked to some other people who have the band and aren't losing weight as fast as me, and I realize, maybe they didn't have as much information as I did when they started out. So be on the look out for "Angi's Tips". Heh.

Current weight: 184lbs

Official Weigh In Day

2010-02-16T07:10:00.000-08:00

Wow, I've been busy. Work has been fairly busy, and so has home. So many things going on, I forget to post here.

So, I've been so busy I haven't been exercising enough. I'm still losing weight because my band is very tight right now, but that's not enough by itself anymore. I've lost almost 80 pounds (only one more pound to go for that goal) so I'm not doing bad, but I would like to have lost just a bit more by now. There have been set backs, like the surgeries, and the unfill, but it still feels like my fault. I was losing 2-3 pounds a week in the beginning, now I'm lucky if I lose one. I go down, then come back up and then go down again. Luckily it's a downward trend either way. I just wish it would go faster. It would help if I didn't eat so much junk.

So on the exercise front I've been getting in some exercise every week. At least one 45 minute session on the elliptical for the last couple weeks. 1-2 40 minute walks in addition to that. I started week 4 of the Couch to 5k yesterday. That was so frickin' hard. I couldn't believe it. Tomorrow I will do it again. I suspect that week 4 will take me 2 weeks or more to get down completely. Had I not been slacking for the last couple weeks it would have been easier, I'm sure.

Hopefully I'll see you guys again tomorrow when I post my 80 pound loss. lol

Current weight:184 lbs

February!

2010-02-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

Wow, this year is already speeding by. It feels like the day after New Year's and yet it's actually February 1st! I haven't been working out in the last week cause I've been sick. I had a bad cold. It was no fun. I'm feeling better today though, so I should be able to get into the gym today.

Since my fill my eating has been much better. I am not hungry all the time, which is great. I'm a little too much I think, because I've been close to PB'ing several times, I actually did like twice because I pushed it. One was at Olive Garden. It was just so good, I ate till I PB'd, paused, and ate some more. lol I'm bad, I know.

For the most part I've been good though. The hardest thing I've been dealing with lately has been getting enough liquids and protein. In fact, I'm eating eggs right now to get some of that protein!

So anyway, it hasn't been a good week because I've been sick, but I think being sick must have not been all bad because I lost several pounds this week.

Current weight: 186 lbs.

Down to the 180's

2010-01-23T12:13:00.001-08:00

I officially weigh 189!!!! Sweet!! I am feeling awesome! More
later (I'm typing this from my phone)

Fill, again.

2010-01-20T07:31:00.001-08:00

Well, I was sick of eating so much so I went in for another fill yesterday. Doc says I'm at 5 something. Could be about 5.5, but he was having a hard time telling for sure. I'm glad I did it too, couldn't have been a better time for it considering I gained 3 pounds over the weekend with all the drinking and the pizza. lol I had been down to 191 on Saturday.

Well, hopefully with the new fill, and being able to exercise again I'll be back on track here shortly. I'm hoping for 2-3 pounds a week from here. Maybe more if I get my lazy but up and do some more work.

Current weight: 194lbs.

Exercise!

2010-01-13T07:56:00.000-08:00

Went to see Dr. Movassaghi yesterday for my post-op check up on my boobs. All is well. He said they were healing well. While I was standing there with my shirt up he looked at me funny and asked, "Have you lost weight?" too funny. I laughed and told him that I had, and that he should have noticed since he's seen me so often in the last few months. He asked me when I had it done, and I told him June. He asked how much I've lost so far, and I told him 71 pounds. He was very pleased and said I was doing a good job.

When he asked how I was doing it, and I told him about the lapband (again...) he made sure to write down my stats and stuff. Apparently he'd forgotten about the lapband part, cause I had told him about it back when we first started back with the boobs. Either way, he was very pleased with the results. And I reminded him again that in about a year, I'll be coming back to him for the tummy tuck (assuming I can save enough money by then).

I left and when I was driving home I realized that I'd forgotten to ask if it was ok to exercise again! So I called and asked and he said yes, whatever I wanted to do.

YAY!!

So I went home, made a phone call that I had to make, took my asthma meds, changed clothes, stretched and was out the door for a run! Oh it was wonderful. I've missed it. I started right where I left off, Day 2 of Week 3 on the Couch to 5k. Speaking of which, me, my bf, and a few of my friends are doing the 5k here in May! So I gotta keep this up so I'll be able to do the 5k. It seems like such a big goal now, like I'll never be able to run that much, but it's a few months, and I have no more surgeries to impede me from here. So I think I can do it. *crosses fingers*

Current weight: 192lbs.

Still losing

2010-01-09T10:19:00.000-08:00

Number of pounds down:

Well, apparently I'm still losing weight. I feel like I've been eating a lot lately, but I guess not. I'm sure my metabolism is better than it used to be so maybe that's part of it. Also, I've been doing muscle building exercises for my thighs. I'm trying to keep them in shape for when I can really exercise again. I have to be careful though, to make sure my heart rate stays down when I do them. So I only do them till I start to feel a little warm and breath heavier, then I stop and take a break.

Sorry for not posting recently. I meant to on my last official weigh in day, last Tuesday, but I got sidetracked. Also, when I'm not losing weight daily it's harder to get excited about posting. I feel like I have nothing to give you to read, heh.

In other news, I have an appointment on the 19th to add more fluid to my band. I've just been eating too much and for the last few days I've felt like I was constantly hungry. Even though I'm still losing weight, it's not very much. It's like a pound a week at most. I'd like to be losing 2-3 pounds a week. Or at least 2 while I'm not exercising.

Current weight: 192 lbs
Wii Fit Age: 21 !! lol

Happy New Year!

2010-01-01T23:21:00.000-08:00

Well, it's a new year. And time for thinking about my goals for this year... weight wise and life wise I want to make a few changes. I of course still have a bit left to lose, about 60 pounds. I also need to decide at what point I want to change up my wardrobe. Or if I want to have to change it up twice or more times. Or I can just keep going how I am, buying a new piece here and there, and getting rid of things a little at a time. The only problem with that last option is that I may not get coordinating stuff. Not that everything has to match, it's just easier that way.

Resolutions for 2010:

1. Get to marathon level running.
2. Lose another 60 pounds.
3. Move to a place that has a washer/dryer hookup.
4. Get my wisdom teeth out.
5. Get a new car.
6. Finish dealing with my bankruptcy.
7. Save money, for emergencies, and tummy tuck.

I may add more resolutions when I think of them, but this is enough for now. Well, thanks for reading. Happy New Year everybody!!

Current weight: 195? lbs.

6 months banded!!

2009-12-31T02:26:00.000-08:00

Well, I've been banded for 6 months. I've had my trials and tribulations, some with the band and some without, but here I stand, 65 pounds lighter than I started. I'm down several sizes, from 22/24 to 14/16 in most things. I feel beautiful and free. Free to live life more how I imagined, and free to be more secure in myself.

I'm much happier now than I was when I started. Partly because of the lost weight, and partly because I'm healthier now. I've been exercising, and I can run more than I ever was able to since I was a kid. Maybe even more than I was ever able to AS a kid. It's wonderful.

Because of the weight loss, I found out that more people care than ever before. It's not because I lost the weight, but because now I have courage to ask! I know how they feel because I wasn't scared to step up and say something. They'd cared all along, but because I'd felt so ugly before, I never knew. Looking back now, I see the signs, but I wouldn't have known because I refused to see what was there in front of me.

I love being able to shop in the regular size part of the store. I love it when I have to get rid of an item of clothing because it's too baggy on me now. I love that I'm less afraid of the camera now. I love that I have a future. I love that I can almost fit into my daughter's clothes, and that we'll be able to swap clothes soon! lol

This is the best thing that has happened to me in years. I wouldn't trade it for anything, well, for anything other than not having gotten fat in the first place.

Only 60'ish more pounds to go to my goal. Wish me luck!

Life is good. Thank you to whoever invented the lapband. Thank you.

Current weight: 195lbs.

2 Christmases

2009-12-26T23:36:00.000-08:00

I don't know how much I weigh right now. I'm guessing I'm 195, but could be as much as 200. Christmas candy and all that you know. Ick. lol Plus I'm not working out, because of the boob surgery, I'm not allowed to go above a slow walk. So anyway, just thought I'd come in and say Merry Xmas and show you a crazy picture.... this pic is of last year at Xmas and this year. Keep in mind, the last years pic is after chemo, and I wasn't fully healthy yet. Not to mention I was about 65 lbs heavier. Hahaha... What a difference a year makes, eh?

Oh, and before you think differently... that is not my baby. That's my baby-neice Mia.

Current weight: 195? lbs.

Back to where I was!

2009-12-18T08:16:00.000-08:00

Number of pounds down:

Finally! I'm back to where I was before I had to have the band loosened. One-Hundred-Ninety-Three! Yay!! I'm gonna run tomorrow, the second day of week two (C25k). Been lazy, haven't wanted to go run in the rain. I have been exercising some at home though. I did 180 jumping jacks, day before yesterday. That was full awesome.

Next week will be no working out, except mild walking, because of the boobs. Wish me luck that I don't gain 10 pounds!! lol

Current weight: 193lbs.

Been busy

2009-12-16T13:00:00.000-08:00

Haven't updated in a while. Xmas season is so busy, it's hard to keep up. My weight is finally coming back down again. Although it jumped about two pounds last week because I was eating crap. I'm back to 194, and if I don't eat stupid stuff I'll be 193 tomorrow, cause I'm just barely in the 194 range. Cross your fingers for me. heh.

Oh, and also, I did the week two. The one I was worried about... it was fine! No problems. In fact, I did it and added an extra 3 minutes of running at the end cause I didn't feel like I was done when it told me to do the cool down. I love running. So awesome.

That's really all I have. Life is going pretty well. I have my final boob surgery on Monday. I get two weeks off to recover, so that should be fun. Have to go buy a special bra today to keep my boobs in place while they heal.

Current weight:194lbs.

Fill! Yes!

2009-12-07T08:47:00.000-08:00

So last Thursday I got another fill. A good one this time. I'm up to 5.5 in my band now. Yes! I can still eat, but it's small amounts. I'm trying to be very careful to not over stuff it because I think that's what caused the swelling before. I'm also trying to get in my fluids and vitamins.

For breakfast today I had a slice of processed cheese, and 1/4 can of tuna mixed with some miracle whip.

Over the weekend my eating was pretty good. I had taco bell for dinner friday, that was probably the worst thing I ate, but it was only a single taco, so I'm safe.

Exercise wise, well, I'm doing good I think. I'm still running, I've just finished the last day of week 2 of the couch-to-5k, I did that yesterday. I read ahead and found out that in the next week it was going to ask me to run for 3 minutes straight! I freaked out a bit about that cause it seems so long... but ... when I did my run yesterday I tested myself. I did my final run segment, then when the cool-down sounded, I chose to keep running. My cool down is 5 minutes. I ran almost the full cool-down, I stopped running and half a block later it told me the workout was complete. So, I ran 90 seconds (final segment) plus the 4.5 minutes from the cool down, so, 6 minutes total! I'm a machine!! lol So I'm no longer worried about the upcoming week. It's two sets of 90sec/90sec (walk/run) then two sets of 3min/3min. And the warm up and cool down, of course.

In other areas, my size 18's are getting very loose on me. They're still fully wearable, but they bunch in weird ways now, so they're uncomfortable in long periods. I also have that size 16 pair that I got from Old Navy, and those are loose too. I still think they're more of an 18, but it was nice to think of myself as a 16. heh. It's ok though, soon I'll really be a 16! You know what would be really cool? If I skipped 16 all together. If I can manage to wear my 18's without them falling off, till I'm small enough to fit a 14. That would be sooooo awesome. hahahaha I can't wait. :)

So, needless to say I'm extremely happy. Life is good.

Current weight: 195lbs.

No clever title.

2009-12-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm back to 199 again. I'm almost at 198, only about .4 lbs off I guess. I made a picture for you guys to see what I used to look like and what I look like now. The now pic could be better, I was wearing all dark colors, so you can't really see definition.

Current weight: 199lbs.

(Click the image to see it bigger, if you dare! lol )

Hovering

2009-11-30T13:20:00.000-08:00

I'm hovering at 200 lbs. Not going up, not really going down. I'm exercising, so that's not the issue. I'm quite sure it's the amount of foods I can eat. I get a fill later this week, thank goodness.

So turkey day was a blast. Food wise I had breakfast, then about 2-3 pm I had turkey dinner. I ate mashed potatoes with gravy, ham, turkey, deviled eggs, and some olives. I made myself a full plate, but was only able to eat about 3/4 of it. About an hour later I had a piece of homemade pumpkin pie for dessert. Exercise wise, I played basketball with the boys for about an hour before turkey dinner.

The next day, I weighed in at about 1.5 pounds down. That didn't last long though, because over the weekend I packed it back on again, going up to the 200 I'm at right now.

I've been running again though! I started up again on my running last week. Wednesday. I did the final day of week one, of the Couch to 5k. It was remarkably easy, so I moved on to week two as of Sunday. It wasn't too bad either. The hardest part was that it was so blasted cold, and I waited too long to take my asthma meds before running, so I was having some trouble breathing. I really need to remember to take my meds about 20 mins before running to really have them affect me.

Anyway, that's all for now. I'm working on a project and running out of time, so have a good day! TTYL

Current weight: 200 lbs.

Back to Onederland!

2009-11-25T12:17:00.000-08:00

Weigh in this morning puts me under 200 lbs again! Yay! I'm back in One-derland! So awesome.
Current weight: 199 lbs.

Not enough fill

2009-11-23T07:40:00.000-08:00

I'm back to 200 lbs again. An even 200. I got there on Saturday and was so very excited to see the number. I've been struggling a bit since my last fill to not eat so much, but my band is still pretty wide open. I have an appointment next week to get a fill, it can't come soon enough. Its not like I have no restriction at all, because I do get full faster than if I had no fill. Thing is though, that it's kinda like how I felt after my surgery swelling had gone down, and they gave me my first fill. It was restricted, yes, but I still could eat like, pizza and stuff. I really don't want to be able to eat pizza. It's a trigger food for me. I'll just eat it and eat it till I puke and that's not good. I'd rather not be able to put more than a bite of pizza in my mouth.

Well, at least I'm still losing, albeit slowly. Well, that's all I had for today, I'm off to go play some web games on FB and read some of you ladies' blogs! Have a great one!

Current weight:200 lbs.

On the way down again.

2009-11-16T10:42:00.000-08:00

I've been afraid, I've been petrified... oh wait! That's a song isn't it? lol (Think Diana Ross )

Anyway, I've been afraid to weigh myself. I've gained some weight. I know I have. I've been to the lapband clinic twice in the last 7 days. They weigh you every time you come in. Surprisingly though, I haven't gained as much as I thought. This morning, I was looking in the mirror, and felt like I was skinnier. So I figured I'd better start weighing myself again, just to know for sure. You know? So I did. And I'm back to 201! Whoop whoop! I'm surprised too. Because I feel like I've been eating an awful lot. Must not be though. I'm probably still going to ask for a new fill in a week or two though, because I'm definitely eating more than I should.

Ok, so on to the other part of this story. So, as you all know, I had all my saline taken out on the 3rd, and had some put back in on the 12th. Well, it wasn't enough, so I went back on the 13th... yes, Friday the 13th, and had some more put in. It was not a fun experience, lemme tell ya. So, I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but my port is slightly askew. It's tipped a little to the left so when they poke me for fills, they have to go in at a slight angle. Now, ordinarily this wouldn't be a HUGE deal, I can take a little bit of needling (heh) so long as I get the little pain shot first, but this. This hurt. Not fun at all. The needle going in wasn't the problem, because I had the local painkiller. Once it was under the skin though and he missed the port... that hurt like a motherf*****. He missed about 6-8 times. I lost track at one point because I was trying not to cry. He finally got it, and added more saline. He went back and forth on it and finally decided to put me back where I was before the removal - 4.5. I was surprised, but not unhappy about it. I liked where I was before, it worked well for me.

He had me drink a glass of water, and eat a cracker. Both went down without issue. I have more restriction than I did on the 12th, but still not enough. I'm thinking that prior to the unfill I'd been swollen for awhile. Also, I can't say this with authority, because I'm not a doctor, but I think all the puking may have pulled some of my lower stomach up through the band a bit and it was closing off the passage. When they took out the saline it finally had a chance to heal and go back to it's normal position. That's what I think anyway, in my personal expert opinion. lol

What all this leads to is that when the doc gets back to town (he's out for a few days this week and won't do a fill until he gets back) I will ask for more fill. I'm losing weight again, so I'm not sure how convinced he will be, but I'll try my darndest to convince him that I need some more. I'm eating about two times as much as I think I should. So I'm going to ask for another whole cc of fluid. Bringing me up to 5.5cc's. I have a 10cc band, so that's not too bad I think. I've read other people's blogs who had like, 7cc's in their band. I think enough fat has shrunk around my actual stomach that it's time to go up to 5.5.

Well, I'm outta here for now. Had a late night last night and all this typing is making me sleepy. Hope you are all doing well. :)

Current weight: 201lbs.

Fill....? No, not really.

2009-11-13T09:26:00.000-08:00

I'm not weighing myself yet. I'll start up again sometime this weekend. I got my fill yesterday, and it provided some restriction, but not enough to really blink at. I was still able to eat a whole chili cheese burrito from Taco Bell. When I was at good restriction, I wasn't able to eat anything with bread or bread like stuff on it, including tortilla's. So I'm going back in again today to get another .5 or .6 to the band, bringing me up to 4 or 4.1.

That's all for now, I'm on my way out the door. See ya!

Current weight: Same as yesterday?

10 Pounds up.

2009-11-12T14:09:00.000-08:00

I've been MIA because I've been busy and eating like crazy. I got all the fluid out on the 3rd, because of the damn pork chop I ate, and for the last week I've been eating everything I knew I wasn't gonna be able to get down soon. I had Olive Garden bread sticks, pizza, pasta, and lots and lots of bread! Sandwiches, toast, etc. I've been a very bad girl. Now, I haven't been eating seconds (except once) and I still wasn't eating all that much in general. Just alot of carbs and stuff.

I didn't do too bad, or at least not as bad as I thought I would. In the first week I was gaining about 1-2 pounds a day, then it must have leveled off a little because I only gained 10 pounds, when I expected to gain 15-20 in that amount of time.

Either way, I've got fluid in there now, though, I'm not sure it's enough. And I'll go back in in a week or so to get some more once this settles. It doesn't feel like enough right now, but maybe tomorrow it'll feel more restrictive. That's usually how it goes.

Current weight: 205lbs.

No more pain!!

2009-11-03T11:12:00.001-08:00

OMG You have no idea how much better I feel today.

Ok, yesterday I went in to work. I was feeling ok, not great, but ok. I ate a couple peanuts for lunch, and had some tea. All in all I drank about 2 cups of liquid throughout the day. By about 1:00 pm I was feeling like crap. My stomach was hurting again, and I couldn't drink anything. I even took some liquid vicodin to help ease the pain. I know it went down, but it was slow to take effect. Even when it did, I still hurt, just not as much.

I was completely dragging. I couldn't get comfortable unless I stood up, but because of the lack of food I was too tired to even do that. I had to content myself with stretching out in my chair a bit and trying to sleep/doze. I couldn't really sleep sleep because I was at work, and I was determined to tough it out to 3 o'clock. At three when I got off work I was almost incoherent. Couldn't talk very loud, because that moved my stomach and that hurt. I was in constant pain. It was awful.

I drove home to drop off the uneaten lunch that I had in my lunch bag and some other stuff I didn't need, then went to my doctor's appointment, which had been scheduled for 3:45.

Waiting in the dr's office I had to stand, sitting just hurt too much. I was on my knees on the bench holding on to the window sill next to it so I didn't fall over, waiting for them to call me. Finally they called me back. They weighed me, I was 194 according to their scales. Fully dressed, minus shoes. When they put me in my room I sat for a minute for them to check my blood pressure and whatnot. I was feeling very woozy and light-headed. While the nurse got all the stuff ready to have my saline taken out, I leaned against the desk. Standing, but held up by something.

The new doctors got there a few minutes later. I can't remember their names, but it was a man and a woman. They were very nice. Apparently it was their first day seeing patients in the clinic. They'd been on call over the weekend though, and were shocked that they hadn't seen me. I told them about what had happened since last Wednesday and the male doctor said I should have all my fluid taken out. He verified with me that I only had about 3.5 cc's of saline right now. He said I should leave it all out for at least 2 weeks, then I could start putting it back in again. I agreed, it was only two weeks. I could handle that. My biggest fear is that I don't do it right, then end up having to keep it out for longer. I'm doing so well on the weight loss, I really don't want to backslide too much. A few pounds is ok, but that's it. He also said I should avoid pork chops ones I get my band filled again. Eat some other protein.

They had me get up on the table, just like for a fill. They scoped out my port. It's just under my scar and tipped a little to the left. Like sideways. He said that as I lose weight it should flatten out some. I tried to pay as much attention as I could so I could remind them the next time they poke into my belly. While I was lying there he and the lady doctor looked at my face and said I looked pasty. Really pasty. With that worried look that doctors get on their face right before they send you to get hooked up to an IV.

He pulled out the fluid, and apparently there was actually 4.5 cc's in there! We were all shocked. Someone hadn't written the extra amount down, and since I'd had fills from two different doctors, who knows who did it. Either way, he took it all out. So I'm empty now. I felt better almost immediately. No more pain!

He had me drink a glass of water, and I did. He said if I could drink two glasses of water he'd let me go home, but if not, he was going to admit me so they could catch me up on my fluids. Well, let me tell you, that water was some of the best I'd had in a while. Not because of the taste, but because it was so refreshing! I drank both cups and was ready to go. I didn't feel woozy (as much) and my stomach didn't hurt. Thank goodness for small miracles. This means my band is probably not slipped, which was a concern. It doesn't mean for 100% sure that it didn't slip, but it's very unlikely.

We went up to Albany to drop off our friend that had been at our house for Halloween weekend. On the way up there we stopped at got Jamba Juice drinks. I got a Peanut butter Moo'd with no chocolate. A small one. I only ended up drinking about half of it. Once we got to Albany, we ate dinner at Panda Express. One of my favorite places to eat, that had been out of my reach before. Too many noodles and bread products. I had a "Bowl" which is one entree and one side. My side was NOODLES (my fav, yay) and my entree was mushroom chicken. The mushroom chicken was a little bland, I must say. I was just afraid to get anything spicy, for fear of irritating my stomach.

I was only able to eat about 1/2 cup of the food that they gave me, so I ended up taking alot home. Which is good cause I eated it for brekky today!! :D

I was very happy that I still was not to eat all that food. That means I still have some restriction, which should make the next two weeks easier. I'm doing my elliptical today after my boob appointment (last one, YAY!). I don't know what we're doing for dinner tonight, but I'm sure I'll enjoy it thoroughly. XD

Oh, and for lunch today I had a handful of fries, and a half of a chicken sandwich from McD's, minus the bottom bun (too much bread). It was SOOOO good. You have no idea. Crispy and warm. I had walked to McD's from my work, and it was so cold out I could see my breath. I sat there in McDonald's with my ear buds playing Christmas music and eating yummy crispy chicken and fries. I couldn't ask for a better lunch.

Current weight: 194lbs ?
Current Mood: HAPPY !! XD

Lower but not as much

2009-11-02T06:40:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I lost a little weight this morning, but not as drastically as the last few days. I've been able to eat a teeny bit more and it shows. I only lost .4 lbs this morning which isn't enough to bring me below 194, but it's very very close. I'm right on the line. So tomorrow, I should be 193! Yay me!

My teeny bit more food amounted to a few peanuts and a tablespoon of mashed potatoes. Everything else I ate was liquid or fudgecicle.

I went to goodwill yesterday to find a cute skirt. All the skirts I picked up were size 16, only one was slightly varied. It was a 16W from Old Navy. So the result was that most of them fit me, tightly, and the 16W wouldn't have even stayed on my hips. Why didn't they just call it an 18 or 20? Because that's basically what it was. It was huge. Well, compared to my current size anyway. A few months ago it would have fit. I love that it was so big on me. hee hee.

When I was waiting for the dressing room to try on my skirts I saw this cute blue and white striped shirt that's a little tiny bit tight on me right now, but still wearable. I look forward to that shirt fitting nicely soon!! :)

Well, that's all I have for right now. Have a great day everybody!

Current weight:194lbs.

Eating

2009-10-31T09:55:00.001-07:00

I haven't been able to eat solid food since Wednesday. I'm a little
woozy but overall, ok. I called the lapband center on Friday,
explained what I'd eaten and that I figured it was just swelling.
The nurse, Rosemary, agreed. She said I should be liquids for a day
or so, if it gets worse over the weekend, go to the ER. If no change,
call her Monday and they'll do a scope. Personally I'd really
rather not do a scope. That sounds scarier than a shot. So I'm
hoping I don't have to get that done.

Thinking about it, I realized it could be the anibiotic pill I took
Wednesday afternoon too. I'd originally thought it was swelling from
a failed attempt to eat pork chops, but it could be that the pork
chops got stuck because of the pill that I took. it could also be
stress, if I thought I could manage it I would take a Xanax just to
rule that out, but it may not go down.

On the plus side I've lost a few more pounds. I'm down to 195 lbs.
Also, on the NSV side, my boyfriend put his hands on my shoulders
yesterday and was slightly creeped out by how skinny they felt to
him. heh. And my neice told me how thin I looked yesterday. Let's
hope she didn't mean gaunt. lol

Anyway, I'm doing all this on my iPhone, and my thumbs are getting
tired. So, I'll talk to you all later. TTFN!

Current weight: 195lbs.

Comments...

2009-10-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

Just an aside to all those who leave comments. Thank you! I love them. I don't check them enough, but thank you anyway! I just answered back to quite a few of them, back to September, so if you recently left one, you can go back and check to see what I said. Again, thanks! I love the feedback! And I love all of you! Have a good one! TTYL

Weekly Weigh-in

2009-10-27T07:51:00.001-07:00

Well, not alot going on around here. I'm back to exercising. But wait, I think I already mentioned that. I went to a party on Saturday and got drunk, and danced and danced and danced. It was great. Wait, I already said that too, didn't I?

I did 40 minutes on the elliptical yesterday. My legs were already sore from dancing on Saturday, so it was a hardship, lol. I made it through though! I feel right proud of myself, lemme tell ya.

I'm going back to the gym on Wednesday for another 40 minutes. I'm debating on next weeks workout. Should I go for a full hour? Or try to go faster, and go for distance? Or should I go uphill the whole time? Or maybe, uphill and an hour together? Oh the choices. I could ask a trainer, but that would involve working with someone else. I do so much better alone.

So, for the rest of this week, 40 minutes tomorrow, 30-40 minutes Friday (depends on if I do it at lunch, or after work.), then hopefully a jog on Sunday. That's my plan anyway. We'll see how well it works out. Maybe I'll skip Friday and run on Saturday instead, that way my schedule stays pretty much the same next week. Yeah, that might actually work.

I also need to do my situps tonight. I was supposed to do them yesterday, and forgot. It was a busy day.

Ok, well that's all for now folks. Have a great day! And here's to lost pounds! Cheers!

Current weight: 198lbs.

ONE-derland!

2009-10-25T12:13:00.000-07:00

Wowee-zowee! As of Saturday, October 24th I weigh less than 200 lbs. I am in ONE-derland. I saw it coming, but when it got here I almost didn't believe it. I should have taken a picture of the Wii fit screen. lol

Well, I'm gonna keep up what I'm doing and I'll just keep getting skinnier and skinnier. lol

Oh, in NSV's I went to a martini party last night, and the dress I wore was a size 16!!! Yay! So now I have a pair of 16 jeans, and a 16 dress. I am rockin' it. heh.

Current weight: 199 lbs.

Annoyed

2009-10-21T08:04:00.001-07:00

The boyfriend knocked the Wii sensor on the floor behind our TV last night, and didn't want to pick it up till today, and I can't reach it. Which means no weigh in this morning. Grr. Oh well, maybe if I'm super lucky it'll be under 200 tomorrow when I weigh in. My 6 weeks of no exercise is up, so if it's not raining too hard when I get off work, I'm going to restart my couch to 5k. That'll give my metabolism a jumpstart for sure. I was going to do the elliptical today at lunch, but I forgot to pack my gym clothes. Maybe I'll come back to work and do the elliptical if it's raining. Then I can just come in, do what I have to do and leave when I'm done, and shower at home. That's a really good idea. I might just do that.

Current weight: 201lbs (Last I checked)

Roller Coaster

2009-10-20T08:08:00.000-07:00

So the day after my last post I jumped back up 4 pounds. It's a roller coaster ride sometimes, you know? I've been slowly losing it back down again. Today I was back at 201. A sight which makes me very happy, cause this time it didn't happen overnight. Which means it may actually stick.

Oh, and to update you on the NSV's from last time. I didn't end up replacing the sweater. I took it back, but I did get a replacement pair of pants. Size 16!!! They fit fine when I stand up, but when I'm sitting the band cuts a little into my tummy, so they're still a little small, but you can't tell when I'm wearin' 'em.

I'm trying to get more protein into my diet, still struggling with that. I try to eat protein first but it's usually the hardest thing to chew. And the protein that's easy, is also loaded in calories (see: nuts, and peanut butter). I buy an Odwalla protein drink from time to time, but they're expensive. I really need to stop being so lazy and blend myself up some shakes at home. That would really be best. They just don't taste as good as the pre-blended kind. I'm giving some serious thought to making pudding with my protein shake powder blended in, maybe that would be good. And it would be thicker, so taste better, presumably.

Current weight: 201 lbs.

Two-O-What?

2009-10-09T07:16:00.001-07:00

For the last few days my weight has been rising a bit. I got back up to 205 as of yesterday. I was feeling pretty depressed about this, because since I can't really exercise there wasn't much I could do about it. I was thinking, "oh great, I'm just gonna gain back 20 pounds and not be able to do anything about it."

This morning, I woke up and weighed myself and got a surprise! I had lost over 4 lbs! Putting me at 201 pounds!! OMFG. I was shocked. I just sat there staring at the screen, stunned. I almost took a picture of it because I couldn't believe it. I decided that I'd save that for when I get below 200. Which I guess shouldn't be long!!

Current weight: 201 lbs.

NSV's:

1. Went to old navy, bought a new outfit... XL Sweater, and 18 stretch jeans. BOTH TOO BIG!! Yay! Going to trade for a smaller size today.

2. This...>

Picture

2009-10-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

My weight is up a teensy bit this morning, but I'm still at 204. I had a boob fill yesterday, so that makes sense. I do weigh more. I'm walking at lunch again now, so hopefully this plateau will pass and I'll drop a few pounds soon. heh. Not likely. Only a couple more weeks till I can exercise for real. Elliptical! Here I come!

So here is a comparison shot, not the best two pictures I ever had. I really wish I'd gotten one taken yesterday. I wasn't wearing two shirts yesterday, so it was easier to see how much thinner I was, and easier to see my waist, but... whatever.

You can kinda see that my hands are thinner, and there's a big difference in my face. My facial features (eyes, nose, etc) look bigger because there's not as much around them to make them look small! Also, the shot on the left is not me at my biggest, but it was closest to the angle of the one on the right. I have some actual before shots with less clothes that need to be posted too, but I don't wanna till I have the matching after shots.

Current weight: 204lbs

Hangin' Steady

2009-10-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

I'm at 204. Only a few pounds away from One-derland! But I'm not allowed to exercise, so it feels so far away. I'm only allowed to walk, slowly, for 6 weeks. I'm done with 3 of those, so it's only a little longer. It just feels like it's draaaaaaaaaagging by. I finally have all my drains out. Not sure if I mentioned that already.

I'm looking skinnier. Several people have commented on that in the last week. I'm back in my size 18 jeans. They're a little tight, but not in a gross way. My tops are 14-18, or L-1XL, depending on the style. My neck is looking longer, and that's just awesome. I have on some super big hoop earrings right now, that I couldn't wear before because there wasn't enough space.

I'm not as scared about getting my picture taken, though, now the the fat is coming out, I have to worry about wrinkles more. heh.

So, overall life is ok. I'm still weighing myself daily when possible. I'm also out of old clothes, so once these get too big, I'll have to buy more. I'm ok for now though, since I'm not losing much right now.

Oh, also, on the food front. I'm still having trouble eating. Which is probably why I'm still losing even though I can't exercise. I'm still going to wait till I can exercise though, to tell the docs.

Current weight: 204 lbs

Feeling Crappy

2009-09-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

Found out yesterday that my tubes will be taken out today. Big Plus! Awesome.

On the weight loss front, I'm doing alright considering I'm not working out at all. I'm down to 206, which will either level out or increase tomorrow, because they're putting saline in my boobs to increase them in size, so even if I lose a little weight, it'll balance out the boobs. If not, then according to the scale I will have gained. lol It's ok though, I know the real reason.

Trying really hard to get my liquid in for the last few days, because whenever I eat it's 1-2 hours before I can drink anything without feeling like I'm gonna puke. And this isn't even to the "stuffed" point of eating. It's just to the full point. I think there's a chance I may need some unfill, but it could also be because I ate too much at one point last week and it caused me to puke, which leads to swelling which leads to more puking... bad cycle. I'm trying to go easy on it now, and not even eat to full, and I'm trying to stick with soft foods. For the last two days the main portion of my diet has been cottage cheese. I figure calcium and protein. Good combo.

Well, feeling crappy or not, another pound down and closer to 199, so I'm happy I suppose. :)

Oh, one more thing... I was feeling kinda crappy about my progress because of the surgery I thought I wasn't going to lose any weight this month. Well, I was just looking at my weight on the 8th, compared to today... in 3 weeks I've lost 10 pounds. That's awesome. So really, I can't complain.

Current weight: 206 lbs.

Roller Coaster Ride

2009-09-27T12:51:00.000-07:00

Total Pounds Down:

I'm back down again. Just over 5 lbs. lost. I've been avoiding the scales for fear that I would have gained weight but felt I needed to do it this morning and get it over with. I just took a look at my last post and realized that I hadn't updated that the 217 I had been at had only been temporary. I was back down to 212 a few days ago. The 207 is 5 pounds down from even that. So what I thought was going to be a horrible month for weight-loss turned out to be ok. Yay!

I'm still healing from my surgery, and still have tubes in my sides, so typing for extended periods of time is still not cool. This post is short, sorry.

I go in on the 29th to add fluid to my new fake boobs. So, I'll gain weight there, but not real weight. lol Fluid, not fat.

Oh, and I didn't go back to work Thursday. I'll be there Monday though.

Current weight: 207 lbs.
Current BMI: 35'ish

**Image courtesy http://www.flickr.com/photos/rehvonwald/

Back to work tomorrow

2009-09-23T09:18:00.001-07:00

I've gained several pounds since last monday. It doesn't help that I'm home all day and bored. I went to the grocery store yesterday at got snacks. Candy and cookies and chips. Yeah, so very nutritious. blech. I'm a little grouchy today because my sleep pattern is all messed up from being out of work for over a week, and I had to get up earlier today so it'll be easier to get up early tomorrow.

Anyway, just checking in. Don't feel like a big post right now. Maybe tomorrow.

Current weight: 217

Surgery

2009-09-16T14:40:00.000-07:00

So I'm not posting much this week, or probably next week either. I had surgery on Monday for the first part of my reconstruction on my boobs. I'm sore and am not weighing myself because of the swelling and water retention that comes from it. I'm hoping I won't gain a million pounds from being laid up and not exercising as much, but if I do, then, well, I'll just have more to lose later. My right boob, the one that had radiation, looks so much better now. I'm very happy with those results. Now I have to wait 1 and a half weeks so they can put some fluid in my fakies to expand them. Then I think it's every week after that.

Once I'm at the right size, which won't be too far off, because I want them fairly small, I have to wait 2 months at least before I can get the last boob job done to have the final implants put in.

Current weight: 2?? lbs.

2-0-freakin'-9

2009-09-11T06:06:00.001-07:00

Yeah, you read that right. 209lbs. I lost over 5 lbs this morning. I guess my camping trip took a few days to catch up to me. I was expecting this loss when I got home from camping, but as you know, I actually gained a little weight. Here's photographic evidence, just in case it jumps

back up again tomorrow (lol):

I haven't run this week. I'm working on the things I need for my surgery next week, oh - did I mention that it got moved up to NEXT MONDAY? I'm not ready... omg. What was I saying? Oh yeah, getting ready for my surgery next week. I had labs yesterday (meaning they took blood from my arm) and I have my Pre-Op appointment today. And on Wednesday when I was supposed to run, I didn't have my truck with me (the BF had it) so I couldn't go meet my running buddy, Brandy, at the park. Which for me meant, hey, I can wait on that till tomorrow. Well, tomorrow got busy and it never happened. Grr.

I'm going to try to run this weekend, but we'll see. I wanted to get week 2 of the couch to 5k this week, so that I'd be further ahead after my surgery. I won't be able to run for awhile because ... no bouncy bouncy. I will jump back on the elliptical though, asap.

So life was a little sucky yesterday, I was feeling down and very stressed out, from the surgery coming up, from the labs I had to do yesterday (needles - ICK/OUCH).

Boob Job!

2009-09-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

Yay!! Well, sort of. I went to the plastic surgeon yesterday to get the ball rolling on my boob job, and boy did it roll. In order to finish by the end of the year, he's having me come in for surgery on September 21st. Yes, you read right, that's less than 2 weeks from now. Holy sh*t.

What he told me is that this is a two part process. Apparently I can't avoid the implants because I still have too much belly fat and my stomach skin is too far out of shape to work with. So he's going to take some skin and stuff from my back for the right boob, and put expanders in both sides to get them ready for the implants. I don't want very big boobs, so this shouldn't take too long. Once it's to the right size, I will have another surgery to put the actual implant in and take the expanders out. I'm hoping to get approval to do a tummy tuck too, because of a rash under my loose skin from my tummy, and maybe he can do that on the second surgery, that way I don't have to have a bunch of different surgeries.

On an NSV note: I am only 37 bmi now, which means I have been out of the "morbidly obese" category for awhile and didn't know it! Now I'm just "obese" and I have only about 40'ish (??) pounds till I'm just "overweight".

Current weight: 215 lbs.

Weekly Weigh-in

2009-09-08T10:41:00.000-07:00

Time for another fill? I don't feel like I can eat very much, but somehow I've managed not to lose any weight last week. That makes two wasted weeks this month. Wtf? I was sure I would have lost like 3-4 pounds over the weekend. I went camping, and we camped on the bottom of a hill, so I had to trudge up and down that hill about 20+ times to first bring the stuff down the hill, then bring it all back UP the hill. I don't think I ate that much, but then, maybe I did. What's wrong with me? Jeez.

I know I didn't drink enough fluids while I was out there, so maybe it's just water weight, and by some miracle, tomorrow I'll be down to 210! lol. Probably not a chance in hell, but whatever. If I go another week without a loss, I'll schedule a fill. That's that.

On a NSV point... I look smaller. I've been noticing in the mirror that I'm visibly smaller than I was. Sweet.

Current weight: 216 lbs.

Date Night

2009-09-02T06:25:00.000-07:00

Nothing lost, nothing gained. Well, I told you that at least one day this week I wouldn't lose any weight. Well that was today. Hopefully not tomorrow. I need to make sure I get my fiber in today. lol.

Went on a "date night" with the BF last night. It was alot of fun. Went out to eat at Chapala's mexican restaurant. The food was great, just like before. I'm sure I ate way more than I should have, but alot of what we got fell into the "mushies" category, so I was able to get more down. We shared a basket of chips and some salsa, and a combo plate. The combo plate had a shredded beef tamale, and chimi, and also a chili relleno. I mostly ate the chili relleno, and some tamale. I had a few bites of the chimi. I guess if you add up all the bites from this and that it would equal about a third of what was there.

Good mexican food is my downfall. Along with pizza, chips, chocolate, and many other things!! LOL

Note: In case you're confused, I actually got to 216 yesterday (Tuesday - my official weigh in day), I just forgot to blog. So I'm still at 216 as of today, which means, no loss. I didn't lose even a tenth of a pound! Exactly the same. lol.

Current weight: 216lbs.

Tic-Toc

2009-08-31T12:51:00.000-07:00

Counting down to 199. I woke up this morning and weighed in at 217! Yay! Steadily dropping almost a pound a day. I'm guessing tomorrow will be only about .6 lbs based on the pattern of the scale for the last few days. Which means I'll be on 217 for two days. It could surprise me, but I really don't think so.

I've been trying to get in more liquids, unfortunately it's mostly sugar free kool-aid, as I'm a little tired of water right now. The point is, though, that I'm getting more liquid!

I've been cheating a little and eating chips, but not alot. Had about 1/4 cup of hamburger hash for dinner last night. That was as much as I could handle. Hamburger is hard to chew fully, it's like freakin' gum, it just goes on and on. The hamburger was mixed with ground pork for the meat, but I think the hamburger was truly the problem.

Exercise wise I didn't really get any yesterday, I had stuff to do, finishing up school shopping. Today I've done my short-version walk, it's about 25 minutes (maybe 30?) and bad girl that I am, I had a 16 oz chai with skim milk. Probably falls about the 300-400 calorie mark. It's that time of the month, and I wasn't feeling well this morning. It was my way of soothing myself, nice warm tasty liquid. I also had a few bites of a rice krispie treat.

Just now, for lunch, I had a few bites of chicken thigh with BBQ sauce, and two small bites of potato. It was too much. Or maybe I didn't chew well enough. I was pretty hungry. When my tummy feels better I'm going to try to eat more of the chicken, because I need the protein, but I'm done with the taters.

Because it's TTOTM I probably won't be doing alot of exercise unless it's after work. I hate dealing with the pad issue, and taking a shower, and changing in the public'ish locker room. So maybe I'll switch to after work for this week, and if I still walk at lunch, the better for it. I'll get double exercise! heh.

I saw a leaf drop today while I was on my walk. Fall is definitely on it's way. I'm excited for the cooler temps, it will make running nicer and not so sweaty. I don't look forward to the rain that comes with it though. lol

In other weight/fitness related stuff: I started my xmas list for this year, and it's going to be chock full of fitness/outdoorsy stuff. I'm even thinking of getting a membership to REI.

Here are a few things that are on my Xmas list:

So if any of you want to do a secret santa, lemme know! lol I don't know how you'd do that online, but who knows. We can figure it out!

Current weight: 217 lbs.

Such Progress

2009-08-30T08:59:00.000-07:00

Two pounds down this weekend. That's a good weekend if you ask me! Gotta stay on track and keep loosing about a pound a day so I can get under 200 in 18 days. That would be quite a feat considering that there are usually at least one or two days a week that I lose nothing. So I'll have to work my ass off to actually get that goal. But... 199 is worth it, right?

I just got back from shopping and dropping the BF off at work. Later today I need to take my daughter to the store to get some new shoes for school. I'd also like to pick up a new frying pan. I'm going to check Ross to see if there are any at a reasonable price.

Anyway, that's all I have to say for now, I'm off to watch a little tv then go to the store.

Current weight: 218 lbs

Back on Track

2009-08-29T10:19:00.000-07:00

Freakin' yay!! 219 today! I messed up on a week, but now I'm back in the game. I'm down to barely 219 so tomorrow I should be at 218, because I'm not being bad today and eating things I shouldn't eat. Not drinking this weekend either. So, go me!

Exercise wise I've walked everyday this week except for the days when I did the elliptical (3 days). I ran last Saturday, but that doesn't count for this week. I plan to run later today too, so that will encourage even more loss.

This is a short one cause it's Saturday and I have stuff to do. TTYL!

**UPDATE 5:36 PM **

Just got back from my Saturday run. I did all NINE run segments!! It nearly killed me because my asthma meds never kicked in, but I darn well did it!! OMFG !! Oh, and before my run I did sit-ups, 1 set of 20 then 1 set of 15 a minute after the first set. That's 35 total! More than I've ever done in one session of sit-ups.

Current weight: 219lbs

Back to Losing!

2009-08-27T08:31:00.000-07:00

Good morning! I have had a happy day so far! I weighed in at 221.2 this morning! Finally I'm back on track. I still lost a week of loss, but whatever, I shouldn't have been out drinking and off eating all that crap. That'll teach me, won't it?

Yesterday I still slipped a little foodwise, but I think it's because my band is too tight right now. So it's messing up my eating. I'm not gonna have any taken out yet, because I think it's tight because my stomach is irritated. All that bad food last week, I've really been mistreating my stomach, causing it to swell.

I'm eating better today. I have soup for lunch, and just had some boiled eggs with salt for breakfast. Minus most of the yolk (it's dry). Yesterday wasn't awful, but I should have been on all mushies, or better yet, liquids. I've just been too lazy to make protein shakes. I need to give my stomach time to heal. It's been growling even when I can't eat another bite, and based on all the other blogs I've read, it's a sign that the band is too tight. It's also been causing me lots of pain and I've been puking. I've only ever had 2 PB episodes, but I've been making myself puke because I've been getting stuck alot.

What I ate yesterday (if I remembered it all; I was snacking alot):

Breakfast - 1 SF Rice Pudding
Lunch - 1/2 cup of bite size chicken bites (breaded breast meat) w/bbq sauce
Snack - 1/4 cup of bite size chicken bites w/bbq sauce
Snack - 2 heaping tbsp cottage cheese, 3 bites of Nectarine (of which I had to puke back up some)
Snack - 2 bites of frosted banana bread, 1 bite of red licorice, 1 dorito
Dinner - 1/2 avocado with salt/pepper

Wow, looking at it here it doesn't seem like I ate much. When I was thinking back on it it felt like a LOT. If you add it all up its less than 3 cups of food total. Today will be a little more, because of the soup, but the calories will still be low, because it's soup. lol

Also, I jumped on the elliptical yesterday, and did two sets of 15 sit-ups. It was great. Both are getting easier to do, so I can do more/harder settings. I'm very proud of myself for that. I can't wait till I can consider myself an athlete. I would love to be able to do 50 sit-ups at a time!

Current weight: 221.2 lbs.

More of the same.

2009-08-26T07:26:00.000-07:00

No gain. No loss. Just the same exactly. I still weigh 222 lbs. I tried to make sure I was paying attention to my eating in the last couple of days. Which is probably why I didn't gain. I'm back on the elliptical today at lunch. I forgot my brace again, and I don't want to hurt my knee, so I'm not running.

This is a pretty boring post. :)

Current weight: 222lbs.

wtf?

2009-08-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

STILL gaining. I dunno. wtf? I gained .7 more pounds. I wasn't that bad over the weekend. I don't think anyway. I think the food/exercise ratio is needing to balance out. I can eat a little more now than before, not much more, but some. I definitely don't think it was yesterday's eating that added the additional .7 lbs.

Here's what I ate yesterday:
Breakfast - 1/3 cup potato salad
Lunch - 1/4 cup (or less?) potato salad
Snack - 1/2 Fiber One bar
Snack - 1 slice of American cheese
Snack - 10 oz. Nesquik Choc. Milk
Dinner - 4 meatballs, 2 tsp elbow mac noodles *

* I also had a small piece of bread, that I ..uh... chewed, but didn't swallow. I really like garlic bread, ok?? :P

So I think the worst thing I had yesterday was the choc. milk. But not enough to cost me that much in weight. I guess though, with having only been able to eat a few tablespoons of food at a time for the past couple weeks, it makes sense. My body was in starvation mode, which is probably also why I was trying to eat everything I could stuff in my face last week. It's better this week though. I no longer feel like I'm dying of starvation. I am eating a little more though, so I'm probably going to have issues with weight loss till it balances out and my body realizes it's not starving anymore. The doc did say that my goal is about 1 cup of food 3 times a day, and I think for the most part I'm still below that. And, the choc. milk is not something I have often, well, to be truthful it was before surgery, but I have tried to stay away from liquid calories outside of karaoke night.

Besides that, in NSV's I'm down to size 18/20 from the 22/24 I was wearing. It's good cause I have a few clothes leftover from that size, and they're much cuter than what I was wearing. I came home yesterday and my daughter asked me why I was "dressed up". lol I explained about the old clothes thing and she got it. The jeans I'm wearing now I think are a 20. They could be an 18, but the tag is all worn out, so I can't actually see the size. I have some that are definitely 18's that I can put on, and zip up, but they're too tight to wear in public. That and I think they only fit because they're stretchy. I'm guessing 10-15 more pounds down and I can wear them. If I can get past this stupid hump in weight loss. I shouldn't say that. I know I can. I just have to keep going and not give up.

I think my exercise today is going to be walking + DDR (dance dance revolution) later. My exercise yesterday was a long walk. Tomorrow it's back to running. Today is laundry day, and all my workout gear is getting washed, otherwise I would have run today.

Current weight: 222lbs.

This week was a wash.

2009-08-24T06:12:00.000-07:00

This week sucked, weight loss wise. Not only have I not lost weight, I've gained! I know what I did wrong. So I know why it's this way, but I'm still not happy about it. I've been eating like I'm starving. I keep trying to shove things in my mouth that I shouldn't be. On top of that, I've been drawing out my eating. Somewhere inside, I keep feeling like I'm not eating enough, so when I get full, I stop for a few minutes, then go eat some more. Grr. WTF is wrong with me?

Then, in addition to the bad eating, I also went out drinking Saturday. Which is so not good. Especially since I was drinking White Russians, which have cream or half-n-half in them. So talk about liquid calories! I ate a really greasy deep fried onion ring while I was there too. Mmmm tasty.

On the exercise front I did pretty good last week. If it hadn't been for the food, I would have probably lost a few pounds. I did the elliptical twice, and went running once, and the rest of the week I walked. Even on my day off!!

About the run... that was great. I got a knee brace, because the last couple times I ran I had trouble with it because my knee, and leg started hurting so bad I was limping home. Well, the knee brace worked wonders. It didn't hurt at all, except for the general soreness you get all over from running. Now that my right knee doesn't hurt so much, I'm finding that my left knee is on it's way out too. lol - so I'm gonna have to get a second one, and I'll be running with two braces on. I did 8 out of 9 run segments by the way! Go me! So I'm officially starting week one of the Couch to 5k. I'll be doing "Day 2" on Wednesday. I was going to do it today, but I forgot to bring my knee brace with me. Maybe if I have time, I'll do it after work. Maybe. Don't count on it though.

So, back to the weight talk... I'm back up to 222 lbs. which isn't a horrible amount back on, but it negates this whole week. Unless on my official day I'm down like 3 pounds, then I can't even count this week for loss.

Current weight: 222lbs.

Life is Lovely

2009-08-21T06:49:00.000-07:00

I had a pretty good day yesterday. I did my walk at lunch. No elliptical, because I forgot my gym bag. I ate ok till I got off work then I started snacking!

Here's what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast - Nothing
Lunch - 1/2 cup (or less?) of pumpkin-turkey chili
Snack #1 - 1/2 cup of pumpkin-turkey chili with 1 tbsp. sour cream
Snack #2 - FiberOne snack bar
Dinner - 3/4 of a small slice of pepperoni pizza *

* of which a bite or two came back out, the rest KILLED me for 45 minutes while it worked it's way down. Oh, it was awful. I should have stopped at a single bite.

So although it felt like I was snacking all day, I guess I didn't really do all that bad. The pizza was a bit much, but with the lack of breakfast, I guess that's where it took me. I would have eaten breakfast, except that I got up late, and breakfast was too close to lunch. So I figured my lunch would be my breakfast.

Current weight: 220 lbs.

Missing Weigh In

2009-08-19T09:09:00.000-07:00

Grr. So I weighed myself today on the Wii, and it totally forgot that I checked it yesterday. So now there's no official record of my 221 achievement. Which broke my 11 week record. And on top of that, I'm back up to 222 today. Damn. And that's even without CAKE! lol

Here's what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast - 1 SF Rice Pudding
Lunch - 1/2 cup of chicken chowder with two melba toasts (a single serving packet)
Snack - 3 meatballs with spag sauce, and a small bite of noodles.
Dinner - 1/4 of a Supreme Nachos and 3 bites of pintos and cheese (Taco Bell)
Drinks (with calories) - 10 oz of CranGrape juice. (approx. 180 cals)

(I don't normally list the rest of my drinks cause they don't have calories. Its usually water or tea with splenda.)

So I probably ate a little more than I have been, but still not very much. I'm not beating myself up about it because, honestly, I'm supposed to be eating a cup of food at every meal, three times a day, and I know I haven't been. It's been far less on average.

For exercise yesterday I got in about 35 mins. of walking. I would have done more, but I didn't have my phone with me, and therefore no time/watch. I didn't want to be late. I have it today though, and I plan to do the elliptical at lunch, and a half hour after work too. Hopefully I'll be back to 221 tomorrow, or even better, 220. We'll see. I'm not holding high hopes for this week.

Current weight: 222lbs.

Weight Update

2009-08-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

See? What'd I tell you? Today is my official weigh day and I'm down 1.5 pounds putting me just under the 222 mark. So I sit here at barely into the 221, but I'll take it! Yay! I am skinnier today than I was yesterday! :)

What I ate yesterday:

Breakfast - 1 SF Rice pudding
Lunch - The elliptical, not really food, but that was lunch. lol
Snack - 1 SF Rice pudding
Snack(that ended up as dinner) - 3/4 grilled tomato and cheese on whole wheat bread.

I was feeling like I needed a snack when I got home yesterday afternoon, I saw my homegrown tomatoes on the counter, that really need to be eaten soon, and decided that I wanted a tomato sandwich. Regular bread wouldn't work though, so I wanted to try to grill it, as a grilled cheese, with a whole tomato in it! I sliced up the tomato as thin as I could, because it's skin gets stuck sometimes too. I buttered the bread, and heated up the pan. I piled some shredded mixed cheese on one piece of bread, and put a slice of american on the other side. Then added the tomatoes on both sides right away so they could get cooked too. I added one more slice of american to go between the tomatoes so they had something to stick to.

It was a wonderful sandwich. I ate 1/4 and had to stop. When that was clear, I had another 1/4, then about an hour later I ate the other 1/4. My sister ate the last bit that was there when I was done. I will have to do it again sometime, but only half a sammy. That way I'm not tempted to eat the whole thing! heh.

I'm not supposed to eat bread by the way. I usually don't. We're supposed to stay away from most carbs for the first year at least. Yesterday I figured it was ok though, because I'd only eaten 140 cals. up to that point (in the form of 2 SF Rice puddings) and I'd done the elliptical and burned at least 200 calories there. So I was running on empty, and needed something more substantial. Of course this "binge" meant that by the time dinner came around (2 hours later), I was no longer hungry, and the meatballs that were simmering in spaghetti sauce were not to be eaten by me. So, like any normal person, I played the Sims(3) during dinner, while the kids were eating. lol.

Current weight: 221 lbs.
BMI: 37.??

Down then Up

2009-08-17T14:07:00.001-07:00

I weighed myself Sunday and was down to 222 lbs! Freakin' Yay!! But I wasn't eating well on Friday, or Saturday for that matter, and that all caught up to me today. Stepped on the scale today and I was back up about a half pound. Enough to shove me back to 223 lbs. That's ok though. It's Monday, and that's a common occurrence for Mondays. I'll be back to 222 by tomorrow I'm sure. I usually am.

For exercise this weekend, I was supposed to go back to the Couch to 5k program, Saturday, with my BF, but there was this big hullabaloo and long story short, I didn't go. To make up for it, I walked to Eugene from my house yesterday, which is a 2.5 hour walk. I did the elliptical today, which I really didn't want to do, but needed to do. I think I'm going to stick to that for this week instead of running. I'll wait till I weigh a little less to start the running back up again. The last two times I tried, my right leg/knee hurt really badly. I don't want to mess it up. I don't want to make excuses either, so that's why I'm back to the elliptical. Besides, there are cute guys in the gym. lol

According to the machine, I burned over 200 cals. on the elliptical today, and so far I've only had one SF Rice pudding to eat, and my vitamins. So I've burned more than I've taken in. I haven't had lunch yet, cause I wasn't hungry after working out. I have another SF pudding sitting here, open, untouched. I was gonna have eggs, but never had time to go down and buy them. And now, it's almost time to go home.

Oh well, what can you do? I guess I won't feel as guilty for snacking later at home this way.

Current weight: 223 lbs.

NSV

2009-08-13T06:29:00.000-07:00

No weight loss since the 2 pound drop the other day. I went up .4 yesterday, and down .2 today, none of which affected the current 224 number, so none of it was scary or great, but just the same.

Although, even with no loss, I'm starting to feel smaller. When I did my sit-ups this morning my belly didn't bunch up as much as it used too. It almost looked like a normal belly when I looked down. Also, I'm wearing a skirt that barely fit last week, it fit, but it was tight. This morning I put it on and it fits perfectly. Not tight at all. I have these shoes that tend to be on the tight side too, that fit better today. I'm even wearing socks with them, and I have some room to wiggle.

On another note, I didn't eat so great yesterday, and I'm wondering if that's affecting the scale. Here's what I ate, in case you're curious:

Breakfast: 1/4 cup store bought chicken salad
Snack: 4 blackberries (chewed/swallowed) , 3 blackberries (chewed/spit out)
Lunch: 1/3 cup chicken salad
Dinner: 1 pepperoni, 1/2 Good Humor Strawberry Shortcake ice cream bar

So that's it. I also had one sip of root beer, and the rest of my drinks were either water or peppermint tea with Splenda. The reason why dinner was so small is that I went to the dentist after work yesterday and it made me sick to my stomach, and my mouth hurt. I only ate the ice cream because the pepperoni was a piece off my BF's pizza, and he'd put hot pepper flakes on it, and didn't tell me till after it was in my mouth. The ice cream was the only thing that was soft, cold, and not water. (Water makes it burn worse! And I don't like milk.)

So, long story short, I didn't eat enough, I think, and my body reacted by only dropping .2 pounds. I also didn't really work out. I just went for a short walk, and did some mini-squats at my desk. I'm supposed to do my run today, but the weather is a little iffy out, so I may end up on the elliptical instead.

Current weight: 224 lbs.

Quick note

2009-08-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

I just realized, that at this rate, I'll be under 200 lbs. by mid-september. OMG.

Skipped over 225

2009-08-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

It's my official Tuesday weigh in day, and boy what a surprise I got! I skipped the 225 mark entirely, and went directly to 224 by losing 2 pounds! How exciting is that??

I was telling my BF the other day that this is like a video game, a roleplaying video game, like Final Fantasy. I get positive reinforcement for doing the right thing, I "gain levels" or rather... Lose Levels! lol .. As long as I keep playing the game.

If you're curious about what I've been eating, here's a list of what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast: 1 S.F. rice pudding cup
Snack: water.... lol - it's true! I was getting hungry so I drank water.
Lunch: a few bites of General Tso's chicken
Snack: 2"x2" piece of cake, with filling on it, and some frosting
Snack: 2 tbsp. tropical crab salad, minus some of the pineapple.
Dinner: 3/4 in. slice of giant hoagie sandwich, and 1 chip

Mind you, I don't normally eat cake. That was my leftover piece from the other day when we were watching movies. There's still some of that same piece in the fridge. And I overestimated about how much I ate of it. The rest though, is pretty accurate. Especially the breakfast. That sugar free pudding is what I have almost every morning, because my band is especially tight in the morning.

I discovered recently some foods that I cannot eat:

Carrots. Cooked or otherwise, doesn't matter. They stick.
Cooked Celery. Not sure about raw, haven't tried much.
Overcooked pork chops.

On the exercise front, I did another day of the Couch to 5k program yesterday, well, actually the same day. heh. I redid Day 1 again. I'm still unable to complete all the run segments. I did 6 out of 9 yesterday. My legs were killing me. They hurt for like 2 hours afterward. Oddly, I'm not really sore today. o_O Weird.

Current weight: 224lbs.

Good weekend...

2009-08-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

There was a going away party on Friday night. Went to my brother-in-law's house and said goodbye to Angel. She's going into the military. Played pool, drank 2 TGIF's Pina Colada's, the first one another shot or two of Coconut Malibu Rum was added. The second one didn't get anything extra. I also had a butter baby shot. Overall it was a good night. I got really drunk, and flirted with people. That was fun. :)

Saturday we went jogging, and I repeated day 1 of the Couch to 5k, later we watched Harry Potter 4, as we wanted to watch them all before going to see the new one on Tuesday. While watching the movie I ate some more of my leftover birthday cake, and a few bits of popcorn. I also did 3 sets of ten situps on this day too. After the jog.

Sunday I weighed myself and I was up .4 lbs. Not enough to be really concerned about though.

This morning I weight myself, and I'd lost the .4 and then some. I was down to 226 lbs!! I can't wait till tomorrow! I'm hoping to see 225. That will be awesome. I'm doing really well!

Later today, about 10:30 I'll be going jogging again. Gonna repeat the first day of couch to 5k, again. Because I still can't do all the run segments. When we did it on Saturday, I was able to kick out 6 sets, without my asthma meds!! Yay! And of course, I did walk the remaining time, so I wasn't just skipping out on the whole thing, just the running part. Wish me luck that I'll be able to kick out 7-8 of the 9 segments today. If I can do that, it'll be the last day I repeat day one, and I'll move on to day 2 on Wednesday.

Current weight: 226lbs.

Free Day

2009-08-07T06:21:00.000-07:00

Today is my free day. I'm going to have half a donut (if I am able) and am not doing any exercise today. I might walk some, but not unless I'm really antsy. Tomorrow is my next Couch to 5k day. It should have been today, but I'm holding out till tomorrow so I can run with my BF. He better not make me look bad. lol

I have a party to go to tonight. There will be drinking, but I'm not feeling well, so I don't know if I'm going to partake.

I lost enough weight to get to 227lbs. So I'm well on my way to my boob-job goal! Yay me!

Current weight:227 lbs.

Weight Update

2009-08-06T06:13:00.000-07:00

No catchy title today, just a weight update. I had my run yesterday, and I was feelin' pretty good. I hung out the rest of my work day with my cube mate, that was pretty fun. Then... I went to the dentist. Lets just say, the rest of my day was pretty well crap. Going to the dentist to deal with my tooth again, same tooth that I've been in for twice before this, was a pain in my arse. Having your mouth forced open for over an hour is hard on the jaw muscles. I wonder if I could get a muscle relaxant next time? Maybe that would help. *shrugs*

Something he was using in my mouth made me cough a few times while he was working on my mouth. And whatever he was doing, something made me nauseous so I had a hard time eating when I went home. I had a heaping tablespoon of peanut butter for dinner. I just couldn't stomach anything else, and my mouth was hurting anyway.

I'm getting behind on my water lately too. I'm trying to work on that. I'm drinking water right now, before I can have my breakfast. I've been eating breakfast first, then drinking an hour later, but I think that's shrinking my water drinking time.

On a good note, my weight is down again! Yay me! It's at 228lbs now, and just barely. If I lose even half a pound more I'll be at 227. I'm so freakin' excited about this. I love this thing. I just need like... 50 more pounds down and I can get my boobs done. That would be nice. I'm going to make the appointment with the plastic surgeon in September/October after I've lost like 40 of the total 75 I need to lose. So I can prove that I'm on my way, and hopefully he'll schedule my boob job for November/December. I would prefer December though.

Well, I'm off to finish my water now.

Cheerio!

Current weight: 228lbs.
Current BMI: 38.??

Couch to 5k - Day 1

2009-08-05T12:02:00.000-07:00

Day 1 of Couch to 5k....Hell. Officially.

I did most of the run but not all. I did all the walk though. So I think there were 8 total segments of running, out of which I did like...5? The rest of the time I was walking and panting for breath. lol No biggie though. I did 5 of them this time, I'll try for 6-7 next time. I may have to repeat week one to get me up to the 8 run segments. My legs are killing me right now, and my lungs are raw. Feels good to know I tried so hard though.

There were a couple times, on the run segments that I had to close my eyes and in my mind I kept repeating "just keep swimming swimming swimming. just keep swimming." from Finding Nemo, lol, so that I wouldn't give up. And I barely made it to the bing sound that signaled the segment change.

I'm going to do day 2 on either Friday or Saturday, depending on how my legs feel.

Current weight: 229 lbs

Cake is not conducive to weight loss.

2009-08-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

I was hoping to be 228 lbs by today, but alas, yesterday was my birthday, and well... cake is not conducive to weight loss. I ate a whole normal slice and a scoop of ice cream. lol ... I had to force it down with water so I could finish it. Bad bad Angi. But in my defense, it was exactly the cake I wanted. It was soooo yummy.

The bad phase is over now, and I'm back to being good again. It's not like I even ate all that much yesterday anyway. I had a s.f. pudding for breakfast, half a cup of homemade soup for lunch, 2-3 pork rinds for a snack, the cake, and then about a tablespoon of BBQ beef and melted cheese for dinner. The cake couldn't have been that bad if that's all I ate. Really.

Of course, it could just be that I stalled out for a day. That often happens around this time of the week. I'm sure it'll drop back in a day or two. I'm going for a run today, well, a run/walk, to kick myself back into gear. I'm starting the couch to 5k today at lunch. That outta be fun. eh?

Current weight: 229 lbs.

Happy Birthday!

2009-08-04T06:11:00.000-07:00

What a great way to start the day, another 1 point something pounds down. I now officially weight 229 lbs. As today is my weigh in day, this will remain on my list over there on the right even after today has passed.

Today is my 35th birthday (and President Obama's birthday too! He's 48 today) and I'm having cake. If you want to see what kind of cake, go here. This is not my regular blog, so I'm not going to talk about my regular stuff.

Yesterday for breakfast I had a sugar-free cinnamon roll pudding. For lunch I had a slim-fast. For snacks during work I had some pork rinds. And for snack after work I had a Good Humor Almond ice cream bar. Well, to be honest I only ate 2/3'rds of it because it made me a little sick. My son ate the rest. For dinner I had a small bowl of homemade soup, minus most of the broth. It was pretty good but the meat I had in it was a little dry and got stuck on the first bite. After that, I basically shredded it, and at it little bits at a time.

So, I think that's all for now. I may come back later if I have more to post.

It's a good day bra'! (from that carl's jr. commercial - lol)

Current weight: 229lbs

Lunchtime Runner

2009-08-03T13:30:00.000-07:00

For my second post of the day I will talk about the second fill that I forgot to mention the other day.

I went in on Friday at lunch and saw the temp doctor that's filling in (heh, filling in) until my center gets a permanent replacement. I think her name was Dr. Hughes. She wasn't a very personable but she got the job done. I told her that I wanted .5cc's to 1cc and she asked me why? She said that she's usually more aggressive. She offered to give me 2cc's, I said I'd compromise with her and get 1.5 cc's. She agreed.

The way she did it was a little different from Dr. Yarbrough. I had the skin numbing cream, and with Dr. Y, he gave me a little pain shot so it wouldn't hurt when the bigger needle went in. Dr. H said that the little pain shot made it harder to get in the second needle, and the other needle wouldn't hurt that bad.

So I tried it her way. It didn't hurt all that bad getting the shot. It did seem to go smoother. She got in there, injected the saline and got back out. It did hurt a bit more after she pulled it out, but nothing to write home about.

She had me drink some water, and I could feel the restriction, but had no problems drinking water. I went home and did my pudding test, and sure enough there was a good restriction. It took me a lot longer to eat this pudding than on the first fill.

So I'm happy on that front. I already mentioned some of the stuff I've been eating. My portions are dramatically reduced. Because I'm tighter in the morning, most mornings I just have a sugar free pudding.

In other news... I went for a walk on lunch today and decided to run for part of it. Out of the 45 minute walk, I probably did 1/5 to 1/4 worth running. It felt pretty good. When I got back to the building I was sweating horribly and my face was beet red. It's still a little hot out. I need to run in the shade. lol

I've decided that sometime this week I'm going to start the couch to 5k.

Current weight: 230 lbs

Monday Madness!

2009-08-03T07:30:00.001-07:00

Over the weekend I went to karaoke, and got stone drunk. It was great. I've been eating very little for the last week. Last night for dinner I had a single hot dog, no bun, and about 1/4 cup of mac-n-cheese. I had to stop twice to let my food go down before I ate some more. I finished the hot dog, but left some mac on my plate. For breakfast yesterday I had pudding, and for lunch I had 5 wholewheat ritz crackers with cajun crab spread on them. That's a fair sampling of how I've been eating.

For my exercise yesterday I cleaned out our fridge. Totally detailed it, removed the shelves and everything. 1 and a half hours of hard labor. lol

I'm wondering if I should be doing protein shakes again? At least every few days maybe. I had pudding for breakfast this morning too. I need to invest in some flavorless protein powder to add to my puddings. I have pork rinds for a snack, and a slim fast for lunch. I would have had that for breakfast, but it's frozen, so I have to wait.

I don't know what we're doing for dinner yet.

I weighed myself on the Wii this morning and had lost another 2 pounds, after loosing almost a pound the other day, that's about 3 pounds for the week. Good deal! Loving it. Hee hee. It might have been more were it not for the alcohol on Saturday, but whatever, I had fun.

It's not my official weigh day yet. Tomorrow. So maybe I'll lose some more by then.

Current weight: 230lbs.

Unreal. Seriously.

2009-07-28T10:09:00.000-07:00

I knew it would be easier with the band. I had no idea it would seem this easy. I know it won't forever. And I'm sure the heat for the last few days has a hand in it, but I've gone down to the next pound every day since Sunday. I was 237 last week. Now I'm 233. If I keep going at this rate, I should be 230 or less by Friday. I'm not holding my breath, but it would be awesome.

Oh, and my bmi is now under 39! lol

Current weight: 233lbs.

Weight Update

2009-07-27T07:06:00.000-07:00

Had a good weekend. Played Forgotten Realms on Friday. Ate chips. On Saturday we bought some comics, and a small, grape, Arctic Freeze from DQ. On Sunday, I had two chocolate peanut butter no-bake cookies. I was having some issues keeping away from carbs as you can see. I don't know what my problem was. It was snack snack snack all weekend. But this morning, I weighed myself and I was down to 234! I have a feeling the weekend is going to come back and bite me in the butt. Probably Tuesday or Wednesday no doubt. Though, even if it does, I know I'll be back to 234 by Friday, because that's how it's been going lately.

To talk about the nutritional stuff now, we had baked salmon for dinner last night, with roasted vegis (green beans, wax beans, carrots, mushrooms and onion), and flavored rice (from a box). It was soooo good. The salmon was a bit overcooked and thereby dry, because I'd purchased it frozen. And I was having trouble getting it to the right temp. It was still quite tasty though.

Overall I didn't eat all that much, even with the naughty foods I have listed above. I calculated the calorie cost for what I ate yesterday and it was about 1000 cals. I don't know what it was for Saturday, but seeing as I didn't eat all that much, it was probably no more than 1500. So although all those things sound really bad by themselves, I'm pretty good at making up for it by eating less in other areas. Also, I'm not drinking caloried beverages either, which makes my calories far less than what they used to be.

One more thing... in NSV (non-scale victories), yesterday I had to do laundry, and I wanted to wash all my normal summer clothes. It was so hot though, that I didn't want to wear pants. So I looked in my closet and found a skirt that I had grown out of, and tried it on. It fit!! :D How exciting is that? It was a little tiny bit tight, but comfortable enough to sit down in. I wore it the rest of the day, and I have to say... I looked great in it. lol

Current weight: 234lbs.

Unofficial Weight Update

2009-07-24T06:21:00.000-07:00

It's Morning again, and I weighed myself on the Wii. My weight is back down this morning to 236!!! Now, I'm barely in the 236 range, but it still counts! I'm very excited. But since the swelling went down from surgery my weight has done this down/up/down thing. It will go down by what seems like alot, then the next day, it goes back up, then, it goes back down again. So I'm starting to see this like a pattern. Which is why I didn't panic the other day when I went back to 238.

So this is officially the lowest I've been in over a year! Sweet!

About yesterday:

Yesterday morning I brought a piece of quiche for breakfast. It was 1/8th of the full pie (minus one bite, heh). I ate a couple bites of it and had to stop. A little while later I ate some more, and stopped. Then, later still, I finished it off. I'd say it took about 30-40 minutes to eat that one little piece of quiche.

For lunch I had a tamale. Out of a box, but very close to real tamales in style and taste. It was very yummy. I was able to eat that without issue and was actually a little hungry when I was done. Oh, also...I was on the elliptical for 30 minutes yesterday, and still had time to shower, get lunch, get water, and get back to my desk right on time.

By the time I got home from work, I was absolutely starving. My stomach had been growling since 1'ish and I was feeling light headed. I didn't want to eat though because I was trying to wait till dinner and I was doing something. My head started swimming at one point, so I grabbed a handful of peanuts and ate those. After the head swimming I started having spots in front of my eyes, so that I couldn't type because I couldn't read the screen on my computer. Finally, about 5, I gave up and laid down for a bit.

After about a 1/2 hour nap I felt a little better. The spots were gone but I was still starving. I wasn't feeling too well either. My stomach hurt. So even though I was starving, my stomach felt upset like I didn't want to eat. I didn't feel like cooking, so I got a pizza for the kids. I ate one of the pieces. The smallest one I could find. I expected it to get stuck or something. I did just have a fill the other day, and in the morning I wasn't even able to eat the quiche. It didn't stick though. I waited a half hour to let it settle and my stomach was still growling, so I got a leftover piece of quiche out of the fridge and ate that. No problems going down. Still hungry. My stomach was still growling, and hurting. That finally settled later so that I wasn't as hungry, but my stomach was still feeling weird, and so was I.

I went to bed then because I was tired, and it was time.

Current weight: 236lbs.

First Fill

2009-07-23T06:44:00.000-07:00

Had my first fill yesterday. I'm going to describe it in as much detail as I can, for anybody reading this who hasn't yet gotten theirs.

After I left work, I rushed home to get the Lidocaine/Prilocaine cream to put on my port area. I slathered it on, and then taped saran wrap over it (as directed). I rushed back to the clinic, to make my appointment on time. I was there with a minute to spare! They checked me in, and said someone would be with me soon.

I was playing bejeweled when the nurse came to get me. We went back and weighed me in. She told me how much I'd lost. Her numbers were different from mine. Her scale said 241 lbs (but that's fully clothed, and fed and watered) which is actually one pound up from what my Wii would have said had I tried them both at the same time. She then tallied how much weight I'd lost since before the surgery. I'd lost 8 lbs from my presurgery weight. They don't count from right after surgery because of all the fluid build up. I suppose I should change my tallies too to better represent where I was before surgery, as opposed to the day after. I just wish I'd weighed myself on the Sunday night before that. Grr.

So once I was weighed, she took my blood pressure and pulse. I then waited while she went and got a bottle of water and divided that into three small cups. She also got together all the supplies that Dr. Yarbrough would need to perform the fill.

After she left, it was only a few minutes before Dr. Yarbrough came in. I was happy to see him, as always, as he is a cutie pie and has a great smile. heh. We talked for a few minutes about how hungry I was and he told me it was a little early for a fill, but he wanted to make sure I got one from him before he moves to his new office.

He had me sit up on the table, he took off my saran wrap cover and took a look at my port area. He had me blow up my belly, you know, like when you were a kid pretending you were pregnant? (Was that just something me and my friends did??) Then he proceeded to poke and prod all around my incision/port area. He seemed to have trouble finding it, but was pretty sure it would be there. He said that the first one is usually the hardest because of the scarring around it that was still healing and stiff. He finally got close to it and said he would just wing it a bit from there.

He pulled out a needle and said this was the hardest part for most patients. He put it in and I didn't feel anything. That lidocaine really worked. When he pulled it out I looked up and said: "Was that it??". He said no, that was just the painkiller shot before he puts the saline needle in. Then he picked that one up where I could see it. It was huge! You know those big needles that are used for needle point and stuff? It was like that.

He went to put it in my belly and I was afraid. When it hit, though, I was ok. I didn't feel anything but the movement as he was moving it around. He eventually found the port and was able to put some saline in. It felt a little gurgley in my belly but otherwise was unnoticeable. I told him about the gurgles. I said I wasn't sure if I was hallucinating or not. He didn't think I was hallucinating, but it was a little odd.

Once he'd gotten most of the saline in he had me sit up, with the needle still in my belly. (The table I was on actually moved for me) He then had me drink the water, as fast as possible. He said that patients usually have trouble drinking the water fast. I didn't. I guzzled the first, then the second. I had to pause to breathe in there. Then he put a minuscule amount more in it and had me drink the third. I had no problems drinking the third either. I had to pause once but that was mostly to breathe. I did feel that one though, as the others went down like... well, like water! heh.

He didn't look like he was satisfied with it, but said he was not going to add anymore. He didn't want to over do it. He chatted with me for a few minutes after that, and wanted me to sit for a bit to see if that changed anything. It didn't. He warned me several times that if I was unable to eat liquids/mushies that I should say so so it could be unfilled a bit. I was not overly concerned with this after the water thing.

After it was over I talked for a bit with the nurses, then went home. Immediately upon returning home I grabbed a chocolate sugar free pudding and ate it. I ate it slowly to make sure I didn't cause myself any damage, but barely noticed it going down. I was still hungry after eating it, but it wasn't far from dinner so I waited before going any further.

I made sausage mushroom quiche for dinner. Since it was mostly egg, and I'd had no trouble with eggs the week after surgery, I decided to have a piece. I cut myself 1/8th of the pie (it was a full size deep dish pie shell) and my kids got 1/4 each, and we reserved 1/4 for my BF. I topped mine with a dollop of light sour cream. I was able to eat the whole piece, no problems. I even had an extra bite from what could have been my second piece. Then, I stopped. I didn't want to push it, since I was already pushing it by eating the quiche in the first place.

About 1/2 hour after dinner I went to get my BF from work. On the way home we stopped at the closest Dutch Bros (coffee shop) because they were having a $1 sale on ALL their stuff. We got the kids stuff, and the BF got a White Mocha Raspberry freeze. It sounded good! I decided I could swing a drink of my own, so I got a small hot Chai latte.

When I got home, I couldn't drink the Chai right away, because I was trying to observe the don't drink right after eating rule. I got to about 45-60 minutes away from when I'd eaten the quiche and drank my Chai. I pretty much guzzled it down because it wasn't far from bedtime at that point.

This time, I felt something. I felt full after drinking the Chai, and 30 mins later when I got into bed, I could still feel it. When I laid down I could feel heat rising from my belly which indicates that it hadn't really settled. Since it was rather uncomfortable I had to sit up for a few minutes to help it settle. I was so tired though, that this didn't last long. I went to sleep not long after that.

There's more, about this morning. But I'll wait on that for now. This post is to long! :D

Current weight: 238 lbs.

Good News bad news Good News

2009-07-22T11:56:00.000-07:00

Good news: I went down a pound point two yesterday.

Bad news: I'm back up a pound point three today.

Good news: I called to make my appointment for my fill, at the end of this month, they didn't have any available for Dr. Yarbrough except for TODAY!

I'm like... no freakin' way! I can do that?? YES! So I'm leaving work early, and racing home to get my numbing cream stuff, and then racing back to get to my appointment!

Yay Me!! I should be back down to 237 (or smaller) by freakin' Friday!!

Current weight: 238lbs.

Weight Update

2009-07-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

Wowee Zowee. I was afraid I was stuck at 238 and would never lose any more weight. (That's how it feels, you know, like a diet, a diet that will fail just like every other diet.) I did though! I lost another 1.2 pounds! This puts me at 237! In the bottom of the 237's even. If I lost another 1/2 pound I would be 236!! OMG. This is so awesome. Even without the fill I'm still doing ok! I would rather be losing 3-4 pounds per week, but losing any is still awesome.

So last night, I almost had a PB experience. The family was having one of those On-cor Entrees, the barbeque fake pork patties that we all love, but I didn't want to have those calories, so I got 3/4 of a chicken breast instead and coated it with the sauce from the patties. It was well tasty, let me tell you. So I put that, a little over a scoop of broccoli, and 5 onion rings on my plate. Well, to be honest, I ate 3 of those onion rings right off the pan, but the total eaten was 5.

So I ate all the onion rings, most of the broccoli, and all but a bite of the chicken. When I got to the last bite of broccoli and chicken, that I ate, I was almost forcing it down. It was just so tasty, and it didn't seem like I'd eaten that much. I've eaten whole chicken boobs before, and this was only 3/4. I'm thinking it was because I ate those onion rings first though. Anyway, I was stuffed to the gills. It hurt after a minute or two, then my throat started clogging up with slime, it felt kinda like the snot that builds up in the back of my throat when my sinuses get all crazy.

Nothing came up though. I don't think I was even nauseous. I had a slight pressure, right below the point that I would have felt sick, but it never quite made it that far. Then a few minutes later I burped really nicely and it settled better. Still hurt, but not so much, and the slime mostly went away.

Current weight: 237lbs.

Weekends are bad for me.

2009-07-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

I am beginning to hate weekends. I have no will power.

Did I make my goals this last week? No. Well, some, but mostly, no.

French, 20 mins per day. I got this in on two days last week.

Work out in the gym at least 2 times this week. Yes. This goal was met.

Walk 30 minutes each day I'm not in the gym. All but Saturday. But to make up for it I walked 1.5 hours yesterday.

Get to 235 lbs. by Sunday. Stuck at 238 because of some bad food choices.

I had ice cream over the weekend, Chinese food, and I was drinking with a couple of my meals. I'm going to stick to some better food choices the rest of this week. No more ice cream, and I will pay close attention to the drinking thing. That was mostly because it's been so hot, so I've been extra thirsty. It's hard not to drink when you're really thirsty.

I'm excited because I'm getting free movie tickets later this week, hopefully Saturday we will go see the new Harry Potter movie.

Here are my new goals for this week:

French, 20 mins per day.

Work out in the gym at least 2 times this week.

Walk 30 minutes each day I'm not in the gym.

No drinking with meals/make sure I'm getting enough water between meals.

Elliptical-tiptical

2009-07-17T11:42:00.000-07:00

I am the master of the elliptical! Woo!

25 minutes! And still enough time left to shower and grab a snack.

I'm not having lunch right now, maybe on my last break, but not at lunch time anymore. I have found over the last few days that I'm less snacky after work if I eat lunch later in the day. So I just had a 70 calorie rice pudding cup. Man are they yummy. I could eat two or three of these things!! I only brought one though, thankfully. I then ate my two gummy multivitamins. And in a few minutes I'll take my b12 and my fiber. That should fill me up till break time and maybe longer. We'll see how it goes.

I have lemon pepper chicken for lunch. I brought 2 breasts, as I was going to have one for breakfast, but I had that donut, as you know, and I didn't want to add even more calories to that mistake.

I'm so excited that I was able to do that 25 minutes!! I just can't get over it. Boy was it hard though, and the gym is downstairs, so climbing up the stairs again was wretched. OMG. I'm going to stick to the 25 for the next 2-3 sessions at the gym, once that's comfortable I'll bump it to 30. If I want to get any higher than that, I'll have to do it after work instead of at lunch.

Current weight: 238 lbs.

Woop Woop - Back to 238!

2009-07-17T07:26:00.000-07:00

I was beginning to worry that I wouldn't make it back down again. Weighed myself this morning and I was down 1.1 pounds putting me at 238.3!! So I'm firmly into 238, and only have .4 to make it down to 237. I don't think I'm going to make my mini-goal of 235 by Sunday, because weekends are hard for me (food wise) and I make bad choices. But I'm sure that 237 is attainable. I am so glad I only have 3 weeks (ish) left till I can have my fill. Once I get some restriction the pounds should start to just MELT off. heh.

This time waiting for my fill is hard. I have some restriction, but nothing to write home about. I can pretty much eat what I want. I would really like to cut what I'm eating to half. I had a whole chicken breast for dinner last night, and a salad. Good choices, low calorie, but still. A whole chicken breast?? I think I should have had to stop at 1/2. Now, bear in mind that dinner made me very full. Once I stood up I got the full impact. It felt very heavy in my stomach. I could have eaten about 1/4 less and been full still, I think.

Drinking water right now, jumping on the elliptical later for 25 minutes. Seriously considering eating 1/2 a donut in the next 15 minutes or so. :( bad Angi.

Current weight: 238 lbs.

****UPDATE****

I didn't eat 1/2 a donut. I ate the whole thing. Raspberry filled raised donut. MMMMM...
I have no will power.

....Arg.

I now feel guilty, but happy. MmmmMmm... It's a good damn thing that I'm doing the elliptical today. I'm also going to add football tossing after work. I'll toss the ball around with the kids and work off a little more, and then maybe swimming. That should make up for that damn donut.

Can't..resist.....must.have...treats...

2009-07-15T07:25:00.000-07:00

Weigh in this morning sucked. I'm up .7 lbs. Luckily still holding steady in the 239, but if I keep eating like I did yesterday, I'm gonna have problems.

I know I haven't gotten my first fill yet, but any gain feels like failure. Especially after eating everything I could get my hands on yesterday. I know, it's NOTHING like how I ate before. All those bites that I took would have been whole items instead of just bites. I would have eaten the whole salad, and gotten myself a whole dessert. Actually, I probably wouldn't have gotten a salad. I would have gotten an appetizer, and a big burger or steak, and eaten it all. I have nothing to be ashamed of for eating what I ate yesterday. It was bad, but still, just a drop in the bucket comparatively.

I did get in my exercise yesterday. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical at the gym. I'm walking today. Tomorrow I'll get back on the elliptical and do 20 minutes instead. The 15 was just because I was chicken. I wasn't sure I could do it, so I set it low. I was fine, and probably could have gone another 5-10 minutes. My legs would have been rubber, but I could have done it. Hopefully by Thursday I'll be over my monthly issues too, which makes the whole shower/change thing easier too.

So today I'm trying to switch up my eating a little. I didn't eat on my first break like I usually do. I'm drinking water instead, trying to get down about 20+ ounces before I eat. I snacked on 3 radishes while I was drinking water to keep the hunger down a bit. I figure they have almost no calories, so it doesn't hurt me to eat them and drink at the same time. I just looked it up, and a whole cup of radish slices is only 19-23 calories, depending on what site you look at. Nothing. lol

I'm trying to push back when I eat, so that I'm not so hungry after work. That's when I get the most trouble. I get home, start snacking, and it turns into what you saw yesterday. I need to be full when I get home so I don't feel the need to graze. I sure can't wait for my fill. I would love to feel as full as I did the weekend after surgery. Yeesh.

Here is the list of what I'm eating today:

For breakfast I'm having a can of tuna (80 cals) with 1/2 a tomato (15 cals) chopped in, and about 1 1/2 tablespoons of miracle whip (55 cals). For lunch I brought a can of cream of celery soup. I know, no protein, but an easy way to fill my belly with low calories. It's only 90 calories per serving, so even if I eat the whole can I'll only get about 225 calories.

Total for breakfast and lunch: 375 cals.

For dinner I have planned to make baked lemon chicken with mushroom sauce. I'm going to try my hand at wild rice on the side, and probably a salad. I'm not very good at making rice though, so wish me luck.

So if I eat a chicken breast with some rice, the lemon chicken is about 392 calories, and the rice is about 82 calories for a half cup.

Total for dinner: 474 cals. (if I eat the whole chicken breast)

Total for the day: 849 cals.

Assuming that I don't snack. Wish me luck.

Current weight: 239 lbs.